A Tan

Exam results will be released in 11 hours. No, I didn't check when there was the leak, because I didn't know about it until the system was shut down again.

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I just want to maintain my current CAP, that's all. Please.

EDIT @ 11:15am:

....... CAP improved this semester, but overall CAP is still down. I was expecting a higher grade for UQR but... sigh. Should not get my hopes up next time. Looks like I have to work my butt off next sem. I hope this doesn't jeopardize my SEP application in any way....

Ehhhh, the USE2305 paper was............. it was ".........".

The questions that I predicted would come out, came out. So that meant PREPAREDNESS. Well, more prepared than not prepared. :\ But wtf, I had NO TIME TO WRITE ANYTHING. Which left 15 minutes for my last question (yes hurray x_x) and I only managed TWO pages. oh em gee. On the bright side, my CA marks for the module seem to be good so hopefully my VERY HORRIBLE LAST QUESTION doesn't screw me over. The first two questions were painful, but still fine.

And my Shakespeare essay was a pleasant surprise. :D JWP > CW! Lulz. My affection is easily won by the changing of alphabits.

So anyway, going to take a nap before I chiong my notes for EN2111. It's openbook (wao. my first open book exam!) so I'm going to do reams of notes for me to bring into the hall. It's be advised that we have sort-of answers ready. Like, ready-made, instant answers. Just add hot water a lot of ink and hand cramps.

Etrian Odyssey news:

For reasons unknown to me, I suddenly picked it up again despite telling myself NOT to go into crazy dungeon crawler mode till AFTER the exams but look at me. I just spent an hour plus trying to kill all the friggin' FOEs in basement 20 but THEY REFUSE TO DIE and what's worse, they keep on multiplying. I've died two times and each time my painstaking hand-drawn map is erased from the face of the earth labyrinth. Not a pretty sight.

Nap. Then notes, not Etrian Odyssey.


!!! Oh! And my figmas and Death Note nendoroids are coming~ Hopefully they'll arrive by next Monday so I can have comfort-foodtoys for my post-exam trauma.

Speaking of comfort food, I shall have to do a post on the amount of food and snacks my dad bought for my exam-cravings. From Meidi-ya <3.

よかった！JLPT３合格します！

Writing/Vocabulary: 73/100
Listening: 61/100
Reading - Grammar: 145/200

Total score: 279/400

:D

CRAP. I FORGOT THAT I HAVE MY JLPT 3 IN LESS THAN A WEEK.

OH SNAP.

I BETTER GET DOWN TO STUDYING.

HOT DAMN, MY A LEVELS ARE OVER!

Only one font size bigger than normal because of the friends who still have S Papers (you smart bastards) and Art (you artistic bastards).

Ironically, those two are two subjects that I got rejected from. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhack.

Paper 5 rocked. I suppose. I did all essay questions - it couldn't get any worse or better. I mean, of course it can always be better, but I'm satisfied with myself. Except for my LDJ question (gack 4 pages) of which I stopped halfway because I felt overwhelming sadness. D: How cheesy. But it's true! I felt the sorrow I was trying to write about and nearly went off track.

I shall do a detailed autopsy on my papers sometime tomorrow. Or later.

Anyway, went out with the class and had lots of fun - and walking. We had a horribly full lunch at the Scotts Food Court (nearly none of the girls finished their food) and wandered around some shops before catching Bus 7 to Haji Lane!!!! Alex, Esther and Manyan wanted to look for their prom dresses so we followed them and gasped at expensive dresses at the concept stores popping up around the place. Like cabbages. Haji Lane is the new Chinatown.

I made an impulse buy of a lovely black HUGE tote bag from Iggi's at Bugis Street for $25 thanks to Desmond. Haha, I must endlessly thank him for the great price I got it for. The shop's planning to release rucksacks and backpacks soon, of which I am going to buy.

So.

SO.

I received the Amherst College catalogue in the mail today.

I very much want to go there. I was reading through the prospectus and the whole catalogue and I just wanted to cry. That much. So much that I might actually consider taking out a loan and then waiting one year (I suppose I'll take a 'gap' year then) just to apply. That is, if when I get straight As and have time to retake my SATs (I don't care what some people tell me but my score is rubbish) and my SAT subject tests.

Tempting to put off going to NUS for one year just to have a shot at applying for Amherst.

Of course I have do a transfer there....

ARGH. I JUST FINISHED MY A LEVELS I SHALL NOT THINK ABOUT ANYTHING ACADEMIC FOR THE MOMENT! >___> I need a new layout for November-January. Haha. How bimbotic and brainless of me.

But hi there? I can read books for fun now! I'm going to abuse my library card now, since the Bishan Library just opened and it's the nearest library I have. BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS. AND MUSIC.

When I find a job, I can enjoy both. AND THE NINTENDO WII AND PS3!!!!!!!

Sidenote: Architecture In Helsinski is my new It band. Whimsical and fun. But Annie DeFranco's Pulse owns the playlist at the moment.

( philosophical? i think not. )

Aw yeah! History is over!

Now I can have a complete casual and fun relationship with Tarling, Fieldhouse and all those crazy cats over at the IH side. Today's paper is going to save my ass. Majorly.

So anyway, I AM RARING TO GO for Literature now that the beast of burden has been left behind. Oh mannnn. :)

How ironic, and symbolic, that I dreamt of like the ultimate History symbol last night. IT WAS A SIGN FROM GOD.

Plus, I think it's totally funny because before I was sleeping, all I could think about was naming my future Shiba Inu, Tamaki. XDXDXD

So my dad asks me "How was today's paper?"

I want to shout and say "IT WAS AWESOME, IT WAS GREAT! I AM GOING TO GET MY A" but I cannot.

Instead, I almost tell him "Because Cambridge got drunk on some hoochie mamas and decide, 'Fuck you Singapore! We're going to screw your Dragon babies up!' and gave us the weirdest batch of examination questions ever'"

So my mum tells me, "Why's your face like that, get over it!"

I wish I could yell at her, "AW FUCK! I CAN'T KEEP THAT GRIN OFF MY FACE, YO!"

Instead all I can do is say, "Shut up, can't I even have a few hours to get over it then?"

My best subject after Literature. My sometimes best subject before literature.

What the fuck happened? CHINA! WHY DID CHINA COME OUT AGAIN!
I can't fucking get lower than anyone in my class. My ego, my spirt, my self will be shattered.
My A is probably flying out of the window - unless my some miracle stroke of luck my arguments (I resorted to Raffles-styled arguments half way through) impress the pants off my examiner.

I'm trying to tell myself that Narindar assures me that my arguments are just fine, that my approach is a-okay, I'm going to do just fine and not fail or get a horrible grade or anything. And I know it sucks when I think "fuck, so am I going to get a C then?" But no, I'm trying to tell me that 'hey, I'm just going to be fine because I've been working hard all year round and God rewards smart and hardworking people with good grades.'

Yup.

Anyway, SEA, honey, you'll have to save my sorry skin now.

And the saddest thing was that my legs were positively shaking for two hours after the paper. Totally numb, drained out of energy.

Oh God, please let me get my A for IH. Pleasepleaseplease.

Oh My God.

THANK YOU MRS NEO.

This was probably the first time in 2 years that I looked at an econs essay paper and knew what to do.

Awesome. Kickass.

I'd kick more ass if I actually finished question five though. :\

More later. Sleep now.

MUAHAHAHA. Thank God, I didn't do question 3or 2 for that matter.

I seriously contemplated about doing technology - I mean, I'm good at it, I've got a good track-record, and I've got examples that no one else would use and blah blah blah. But I was correct. The whole world and their mothers did question 3 for the sheer easiness of it all (you can't fail the question, I mean! WE USE TECHNOLOGY NOW? HIIII) and the rest of the world and their fathers did question 2 on "are pictures more powerful than words?".

Plus, a quick scrounging around LJ (I am such a stalker) reveals that well, question 3 (and 2!!) was significantly popular even in the top 5 JCs. Lest I lose out to them with my torturous expressions (hahaha) and my glib grammar mistakes of writing too fast which makes Cummings seem positively readable, I'm glad I didn't write anything on question 2. I would have discussed slightly, okay really abstract matters which in the end, wouldn't pertain to the question. Dangerous, when I write about things I love so much.

So I did the last question on the paper.

Yeah, the one about whether newspapers and magazines reports are increasingly more trivial rather than important. And I know I badly paraphrased the question. So far, I only know Chung-towkay did the question. I have no idea who else has done it. Which reduces the competition for me. Ah media, I love you. I just piled on the Culture of Fear thing (NOAM CHOMSKY I LOVE YOU!!!!) and nice cliched(?) but well-phrased ideas of how 'importance' depends on the region, age group and so and and so forth. Anyway, I shouldn't do too badly for the essay.

Now the comprehension was a disaster. There goes my usual 7/8 for AQ!!! I think I managed to 'ace' the short answer questions. And for me 'ace' is getting a fairly good pass, noting that I usually fail the short answer questions. The summary just killed me. It was mind-bogglingly annoying to do because of the numerous parts. :\ Which in every respect, killed off the extra time which I usually used to nap.

Uh huh, usually I finish my comprehension with 15 mins to boot. This time, I couldn't complete my AQ (WHICH I HAD LIKE GOBS AND GOBS OF THINGS TO WRITE ABOUT, THANK YOU CJC!) and only managed to zip in 3 points. Hopefully the 3 points can garner a safe 5 ot 6 depending on the quality? D: I am SAD for my AQ!!! I mean, arrrrgh the prelims just tested us on teh FREEDOM OF SPEECH (7/8 thank you very much, I'm very proud of my numerous 7/8s which has NO MEANING NOW!!!) and yah I'm quite devastated.

Anyway, I have to up my gears for Econs, History and Lit now. Gah.

EDIT:

After the exam, we headed out to Subway for lunch (mmm meatballs) and I waltzed down to Kino to get a new mechanical pencil. The Pilot Opt, to be precise.

I also found this very informative website.

So it turns out that I've some how inadverently become a fashion icon of sorts (wtf, I know that sounds totally incongruous) with people cashing in with my headphones-style and now my mechanical pencil choice.

Maybe I should go dabble in fashion design.

HAHA, NOT.

So the point of this is that I won't be online for most of the day tomorrow because I'll be at the airport mugging my ass off on things called History and Econs. Or maybe History and Lit depending on how I'm feeling.

But definitely history.

EDIT:

... I feel rather sad for submitting my GP essay because I do think I did write it quite well (there is something wrong with that sentence, can you tell?). I mean, it wasn't super cheem, extremely sophisticated used latinate or bombastic words - but it was effective, it got the point across and it was entertaining. Not E! Entertainment entertaining, but more of the docu-mentary... Anthony Bordain kind.

So I just said that because I was feeling insecure (!!!! what??) about my writing skills after reading a random essay floating on the interweb.

No, not that AJC one. Haha.

Good God, I feel like absolute rubbish.

I got back all of my prelim results - which would have been satisfactory and actually quite good... Except for fucking economics. I don't understand how I can put in effort and nothing comes out in fact, I dropped grades.

I should have done better for Lit. Still, I think I did alright with the fact that I didn't study for it. :D()() Fuck, how on earth can I get an A... Tell me how can I hit my projected grades of AAC?

Oh well. One more month to go. It's the last stretch, the final hurdle - all those lame-ass cliches. One last chance to kick ass. Whatever it is, I just need to get it.

ブッツバス！！！ >O!!!!!!!

EDIT: I feel weird but hey guys, go get last.fm and friend me! I think I've been on it for at least 6 months (maybe even a year?) and I have no friends. HAHA. No but seriously, music = love yeah?

I think I should think up of a new profile for the LJ blurb and the info page. I remember how happy I was with the current lame one. :D()()

EDIT: ARGH. My mind is too saturated. There's too many things floating around inside. I wish I was a fish. I wish I was a duck. I wish I was a snapping turtle.

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I need to write. Writing is my form of exercise - my form of running on the mental synthetic track. I hate it when nothing comes out.

But it eventually will.