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I'm trying to trim my fringe so that it looks like the short-ish crop I had in Japan but it's not working out very well. Looks like I'll have to pay the hair-dresser a visit. Speaking about going into town, I need to pick up my Ooku books.

I haven't given up yet, because Yen gave me a timely prod, so here is day 2 of the meme.

day 2 – where you’d like to be in 10 years.

If my math doesn't fail me, I'd be 31 going on 32 in 10 years time. It's a doubly scary thing for me, because another ten years would have passed me by and I'd be thirty. I can get away with being below 18 sometimes, when gregarious insurance agents approach me in the subway stations and ask me if I am old enough to talk to them and I can scoot away and say "no I'm still in JC." When I'm 30, I'm quite confident that I won't look like this anymore. Hopefully I'll be thinner, none of that paunch that comes from drinking and midnight snacking and in a better place.

I haven't decided. Do I want to be in Tokyo or New York? I know one large part of my postgrad plans are going to be centered around either place, but I still haven't decided. Or both. It'd be great if I could be like Naho and Yuri and shuttle between both places. Going through Yuri's mobile updates about her month in New York (on business, no less) and visiting her alma mater makes me feel that I should travel and experience the Big Apple, from the inside out. I'd like to be in a city -- with quick access to the country-side. Loud sounds and quiet people.

I miss Tokyo more than anything else. How the streets outside my dorm always had someone walking past, with their dog, by themselves on the way to the public bath-house, or bringing their laundry to the laundromat. I like watching the huge industrial washing machines and dryers whir into the night.

I'd like to be somewhere I can practice my art in. I'm caught right now, in between writing and photography, and while I want to pursue both wholeheartedly, I'm going to have to make a choice sooner or later. In ten years, hopefully I've found the answer -- and it might be the right one.

Because I've neglected this journal for far too long, and I would like to practice writing -- that is, writing anything at all, because I've been abnormally tightlipped lately -- so Yen and I are going to do these 30 day memes!

I'm probably going to modify some of the questions because clearly this isn't a tumblr and I don't have time to tumblr around with tumblr questions.

( meme questions )

Here is the first question.

day 1 – your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

( answers here. )

For many reasons, including the incredibly humid weather:

( THE BLOB!! )

My dream Ninomiya coat is also on sale at Jiyuugaoka's Uniqlo for 2990yen. I needs it. If Takadanobaba has it too, I will SNAP IT UP.

Current Mood: dorky

Received an e-mail from my cousin IP (sorry, there is no "MAN" behind the IP) about the relocating of Tsukiji Market. It was only barely two years ago that I visited the damp but never dark seafood market at four am in the morning. Running behind our guides, and telling them about sotong and how it tastes delicious with chili sauce, and then lightly pulling apart flying fish wings to admire the delicate beauty of the one milimeter thin fins.

There's giong to be a jazz concert to be held, as a sort of pleasant protest against the relocation. I'd love to attend but flying myself out of Singapore just for the concert is a little out of my league. A pity I can't be there.

I've been making backups of my LJ archives lately, what with all the talk about LJ possibly shutting down. I've been on LJ for around what, six years and if it does go - I don't intend for any of my entries to go down with it. I'd probably relocate to my domain but still, it won't be the same. I'm pretty constant with blogging. I haven't changed my address since I started here and before that, I was always on the same blogspot site. So to uproot myself and plant new seeds on foreign soil will take some getting used to.

Maybe flower, this time.

I turned twenty around 2 and a half hours ago, but my family had my birthday dinner celebration at Vivocity's Japanese Gourmet City (or something like that) on Friday. It's one of those weird traditions that we have: Japanese food for my birthday and Thai food for my brother's.

So it was Japanese food for my twentieth birthday. Fitting, because I'll be celebrating my 21st (hopefully not alone!) in Japan -- if everything goes according to plan. I am terrified of fuck ups at the moment and I'm spazzing out at every single ting that goes wrong. Haha. But anyway

FOOD.

( is here! )

Bought this cup at Daiso. It's the most adorable cup ever because the pig looks so forlorn. A forlorn pig cup! D:

Ugh. I'm tired and I need to continue studying.

( money woes )

Wow. Nothing really changed. But I'm no longer 19, all of a sudden!

Current Mood: lonely

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Wow.

In a few weeks (12 days to be exact) I will turn 20. I'd have just climbed over the fence and landed safely on the other side of the field. I wonder if the grass will be greener.

I asked my mum if I could have a Blackbird, Fly for my 20th - only because she's been chipper about giving presents this year. Last year I had a pocket of air - and was promptly turned down. A new computer and mouse? No problem. New pairs of shoes? A-OK. But a (beautiful) film camera? No.

So here's the compromise.

My brother will be getting me the Blackbird, Fly (the initials will now be known as Best Brother Forever!) -- praytell it's not an empty promise -- and mum will be giving me money to spend on books. Which is as good, or perhaps better, because I do love my books. I plan to spend around half of it at BooksActually, and then the rest on graphic novels at Kinokuniya.

I kind of want to do a pre-birthday celebration at BooksActually on the 29th, because that's the only time I can actually get out of the house to celebrate my birthday. Any other time would be too late, or having Exams to deal with. The woes of being born at the end of the year.

But what I reallly want for my birthday is my grandma to leave with dignity.

EDIT:

Things I have to do this week

Do a bank transfer into my PP account (visit DBS on Wednesday morning?)
DannyChooxAnimax Blogging Workshop on Wednesday morning
STUDY
Ethics essay
AFA08

Current Mood: dorky

I've more or less been slowly but steadily moving away from pure (mindless, I suppose) anime/manga otakuism. I don't know if it's because I'm gradually letting myself get caught up in the realities of well, real life, or the fact that I don't see that pressing need for me to fulfill myself in that way. What way? I see myself as having been collecting like a lemming. I like to collect, I have been for ages: stolen lego pieces from school when I was in kindergarten; old tacky badges, free from computer games and events when I was in primary school; Sailor Moon trading stickers and cards -- I managed to set up an awesome business in my class "selling" those stickers for a couple of bucks; then Pokemon cards, most of which I still have (even that $100 Charizard 1st edition foil when $100 was impossible to save and took many, many skipped lunches; then manga and lots of it; now it's turned to PVC figures, something I've dabbled in since 2005 but went full swing into around last year. And boy, it's been one hell of a ride.

I've been collecting mainly, to fulfill this impossible desire of mine to manifest my personality in some sort of corporeal form. It's as though I've always needed a container to stuff the stages of my life into, easy to compartmentalize, easy to put up on shelves and take a look at - but always hard to dispose of because you've always got that lingering attachment to your posessions.

But now I want something bigger -- a lifestyle to encompass everything. Something that will influence my whole way of living day to day. An aesthetic value of sorts. Something to live by. Other than these pretty phrases that I'm throwing out right now.

Right now, I'm about a quarter way there. Maybe a third. Not half though. But I guess it's a good start, now that I've weaned myself off impulsive PVC figure buying. It's a lot more calculated now: do I really want this?; am I getting this merely because it "completes the collection"?; why the hell am I getting this? Because, when it comes to collecting things, it's never really about a tangible need (like how I need to drink water right now because I'm parched - side note: strange how Parch and Parchment... okay nevermind) but always more of a want. I acknowledge that. But yeah, I've slowed down quite a bit. I deliberate, much to my annoyance because these are really trivial things, a lot more over what not to buy and what to buy. Why?

Well, I'm trying to turn my life in a differection - a different direction. I'd like to do a whole lot of other things, like set up my own online magazine, an online portfolio, seriously get into photography and not waste Kobain's (that's my stupidly named S3 IS) functions, I want to read more, I want to be able to buy a button press and make buttons -- a whole bunch of things that I want to do but unfortunately cost a whole shitload of money. So I need to cut something off. Like this crazy impulsive hobby of mine. ^^;; Really I don't even know why I bought that horrible Revoltech Tohsaka Rin other than for the pure novelty of it -- it is hideous, if you pardon by digression - - and the fact that "it came after Revoltech Rei, so I need it too". Whoop-dee-doo: thirty bucks gone just like that.

But yes, I need to get back to my unfornuate turn of events right now. Being Entertainment Ed for the school e-zine is a lot more harrying than I expected (by the way, if you have any film, music or tech events or happenings that you want to promote, e-mail me at mint at nus.edu.sg, haha) and I've been bombarded with full-time PR duties and part-time studying opportunities. Very bad for my academic career but it has more or less spurred me on to want to get my online magazine up and running. I hope the A7X and FFF collaborations don't bail out on me. I cannot take such shocks in the midst of a few more hell weeks I have to go through before the exam period and then holidays (say that with a huge sigh of relief).

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: UVERworld - Byouteki Kikyuu Nikki

"I always feel like I'm struggling to become someone else. Like I'm trying to find a new place, grab hold of a new life, a new personality. I guess it's part of growing up, yet it's also an attempt to reinvent myself. By becoming a different me, I could free myself of everything. I seriously believed I could escape myself- as long as I made the effort. But I always hit a dead end. No matter where I go, I still end up me. What's missing never changes. The scenery may change, but I'm still the same old incomplete person. The same missing elements torture me with a hunger that I can never satisfy. I guess that lack itself is as close as I'll come to define myself. For your sake, I'd like to become a new person. It may not be easy, but if I give it my best shot, perhaps I can manage to change. The truth is, though, if put in the same situation again, I might very well do the same thing all over. I might very well hurt you all over again. I can't promise anything. That's what I meant when I said I had no right. I just don't have the confidence to win over that force in me."

South of the Border, West of the Sun - Murakami Haruki

Hello Murakami, you always know how to make my day a whole lot better.

(And I walked past Hemingyay just now. The small joys of life try to salvage my huge disappointments!)

Current Mood: nauseated

Hello world!

I've been feeling anti-social lately, not really into that whole froufrou air-kissing thing that's so the rage. =A=;; So anyway yes. Been keeping to myself, keeping to my guns (and Gunns) - just trying to keep my eye on the game. I don't want to be distracted.

I wish I wasn't this behind in my work. Self-editting right now. I am catching up with my novels though. Nearly there. Plodding along - I'm just wanting to kick ass on my essays? I live for them.

... I really should do my figure photoshoots though. Now that I'm waaaaay behind. Oh well.

This post is turning out into what it wasn't supposed to be. D: It's my mouth (and fingers) running off and on right now. Urgh.

Soon I'll be spamming my LJ with SEP lists. Hurrah to my ever indecisive indecisiveness. =A=;;

Slightly upset that there's no one question devoted to Alice. And Prof A will be on a year long sabbatical from next semester and I want to have her for an ISM on Alice and other children's literature. Jabberwocky ftw!

Back to work. And American TV. God, what would I do without the internet!

Current Mood: maybe i have enough drive?

I was searching for some old LJ posts and I happened to come across some that I wrote when I was still in JC and gosh, I was angsty.

And I think I wrote better -- probably because I simply wrote, and didn't think about what I was writing (until it was too late). XD

I'm detestable, I'm spazzy, I'm drugged, I'm on coccaine mixed with heroin and a shot of ecstasy. I'm eccletic and eccentric and I ramble off and keep silent for hours on end. Thank you very much world, that's me for you.

And not you for me. :)

Very. Teenager.

I think I'll be reading most of my old LJ entries when I feel like procrastinating. It's nice to see how my journaling style has evovled.

Current Music: THE BLUE HEARTS - 情熱の薔薇

That large thinge called a conscience. It plagues me, and every single action I take or decision I make. It makes me uncomfortable when I have to weigh between Lectures and Assignments.

Opportunity cost sucks.

Current Mood: tormented
Current Music: Ryuichi Sakamoto - Seven Samurai

Analytical Thinker (AT)

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The analytical thinker is a reserved, quiet person. He likes to get to the bottom of things - curiosity is one of his strongest motives. He wants to know what holds the world together deep down inside. He does not really need much more to be happy because he is a modest person. Many mathematicians, philosophers and scientists belong to this type. He loathes contradictions and illogicalness; with his sharp intellect, he quickly and comprehensively grasps patterns, principles and structures. He is particularly interested in the fundamental nature of things and theoretical findings; for him, it is not necessarily a question of translating these into practical acts or in sharing his considerations with others. The analytical thinker likes to work alone; his ability to concentrate is more marked than that of all other personality types. He is open for and interested in new information.

The analytical thinker has little interest in everyday concerns - he is always a little like an “absent-minded professor” whose home and workplace are chaotic and who only concerns himself with banalities such as bodily needs when it becomes absolutely unavoidable. The acknowledgement of his work by others does not play a great role for him; in general, he is quite independent of social relationships and very self-reliant. He therefore often gives others the impression that he is arrogant or snobby - especially because he does not hesitate to speak his mind with his often harsh (even if justified) criticism and his imperturbable self-confidence. Incompetent contemporaries do not have it easy with him. But whoever succeeds in winning his respect and interest has a witty and very intelligent person to talk to. A partner who amazes one with his excellent powers of observation and his very dry humour.

It takes some time before an analytical thinker makes friends, but then they are mostly friends for life. He only needs very few people around him. Their most important ability is to be a match for him and thus give him inspiration. Constant social obligations quickly get on his nerves; he needs a lot of time alone and often withdraws from others. His partner must respect this and understand that this is not due to the lack of affection. Once he has decided in favour of a person, the analytical thinker is a loyal and reliable partner. However, one cannot expect romance and effusive expressions of feelings from him and he will definitely forget his wedding anniversary. But he is always up to a night spent with stimulating discussions and a good glass of wine!

Adjectives which describe your type

introverted, theoretical, logical, spontaneous, rational, analytical, intellectual, sceptical, pensive, critical, quiet, precise, independent, creative, inventive, abstract, eccentric, curious, reserved, self-involved, imaginative, unsociable, determined, modest, careful, incommunicative, witty

These subjects could interest you

literature, science fiction, philosophy, psychology, mathematics, Internet, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, music, writing, strategy games, politics

Current Mood: apathetic

19 years later, I'm still annoying. :D

Comment on this post, and I will choose seven interests from your profile. You will explain what they mean and why you are interested in them. Post this along with your answers in your own journal so that others can play along. (Or you can alternatively post them here as well)

Gackted from

tsu_

( Meme! )

I'm in school now waiting for my mum to pick me up and oh having cramps. ARGH. >_

Current Mood: lethargic

Gackted from

azariel_x

1. Go to Career Cruising, www.careercruising.com
2. Put in Username: nycareers and Password: landmark.
3. Take their "Career Matchmaker" questions.
4. Post the top twenty results.
5. Put the careers you have seriously considered/would find interesting in bold.
6. Put the careers that make you think "WTF" in italics.

( Vanna White, do your stuff! )

I had typed out a whole huge LJ post here, but it was deleted by accident. I suppose it was a subconscious want to actually delete the thing. I was rambling too much.

I skipped school last Tuesday, albeit just one lesson. First time since school started and I'm feeling rather apathetic about it. I woke up in the middle of a storm, chilled to the bone and my nose sprinting for the world record. To say that I had a 'headache' would be an understatement. It was like what I imagine to be, a hangover with heavy metal mixed in. I barely had enough sleep because I kept on coughing during the night (here, Enid Blyton's 'whopping cough' comes to mind) and frankly, I wasn't about to sacrifice sanity and health to go to school for a two hour lesson. Four hours of travelling time for a two hour lesson. This reaks of waste of resources.

That being said, I have the CICI short paper due this Thursday because I'm not exactly planning to head down to school on Friday to just hand in a paper. Like I said, the travelling time doesn't justify it at all. This is when I don't finish entry drafts and leave them till one week later =A=;;.

Been skipping school rather irately lately (woooh internal rhymes ftw! I have so forgotten all the wtf literary terms I used to know) and I'm feeling guilty about it. Well not exceptionally guilty. I'm more relieved than anything. So anyway, had to do a presentation during Mr N's class today and as expected, it was punctuated by lots of awkward pauses and silences. I am a dunce lah. Really retarded. ~~HAHA ALLITERATION FOR EFFECT!~~ Thank God I presented today. I so do not want to embarrass myself in front of the Todai visitors on Thursday. Though, I'm skeptical as to whether they're really showing up. There were supposed to be a bunch of Waseda students sitting in during a lesson a week or two ago but they never showed up!

Where are my hot Japanese University ~~Men~~ Guys!? Hurhur.

So anyway another week has passed and in a few days, recess week will start! Which unfortunately will be spent amidst the (Mc)flurry of driving lessons, paper on Buddhism, film paper proposal, HOOKED article and reading up the upcoming lit texts. I've made a promise with my brother to bring him to Sim Lim Square to help him buy a set of AudioTechnica headphones, afterwhich I'll have to troop down to KKnM to place the order for my nendoroids. HOW EXPENSIVE MY HOBBY IS. GRAH.

I just finished my CICI proposal for the wtf 6000 word research project and I think I'm some kind of closet lover of homosexuals and what not. (By this I am minusing yaoi because well, yaoi is yaoi... I am making myself sound superficial here.) I'm probably going to do something on the hijra subcommunity in India just for the heck of it, because I'm rather interested in it and well, I am a Fat Yaoi Fangirl. So I might as well transmute this stereotype into reality! By examining real ~~yaoi lulz~~ transgenders! :D

Okay, I think I'm beginning to freak my readers out...

Current Mood: full
Current Music: The Cat Empire - The Chariot

I am a bad friend, and I sincerely apologise.

For being insensitive, for being caustic and callous, for not caring, for pretending to care, for not pretending to care, for just being me.

But the fact that you, you, you and all the yous that I know are still my friends - or at least, still talk to me - thank you. Thank you for putting up with my intelligence complex - I am never inferior or superior enough, and I emo about it - and my mood swings where I nearly catapult into outer space.

Ugh. C for Lit. I am missing an inch of a mile to my B, and 20000 leagues to an A. I fucked up big time.

See, I told you writing that Tyrone was the sun = a D for LDJ. I hate it when I'm proven correctly, quite paradoxically. I wish I was proven wrong when I said, "I screwed up literature". What's worse is that the Atwood paper (while though not my favourite text, but my favourite paper to do... only because it has LDJ and Atwood at the same time...) got an effing 26 when my assignment got a 39. I guess I should have taken JTan seriously when she was certain that I couldn't reproduce the same results during exam conditions.

But one can hope, can't she?

There's this thing about me and lit. I can't perform during exams. At least, not to my expectations. Whatever A I get during assignments, whatever slick new insights that I concoct all just die before the presense of exams. To quote that horrible Irish, "Some people just cannot handle exams. Some people just cannot perform up to their standards!"

Yeah thanks for going for the jugular. Hit, punch, 1 2 3 4 5 6 - K. O.

I am sufferring from writer's block. I have a vague idea for a short story I want to write - but I'm completely lost on how to convey it, how to create my own writing style without sounding too long-winded - maintaining that old quality of verbosity I used to have. I had it, once - the ability to weave true stories with trickles of honey in them. Reflective of the books I read. Now I'm reduced to writing essays. My short stories are possessed by the worst kind of demon - pretentiousness. I cannot. Cannot what?

Cannot what!

Haha, just sent my WLAN essay. It's really like a badly done GP essay (much worse than my real GP essay) due to the whole technicality of it all. ( Read 'em and weep. )

The last techie, Ministry endorsed essay competition I took part in taught me the lesson that these competitions don't look for writing style much - they focus on ideas and ideas alone. Or rather, they don't look at practicality much. If you suggest building a collapsible robot you win. If you be realistic and talk about something like WiFi used nation-wide, they'd ignore you. So I went for ludicrous ideas this time. All in a day's work I say.

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I GOT INTO THE TOP 23 CANDIDATES FOR THE WORLD'S COOLEST INTERN!

day 2 – where you’d like to be in 10 years.

the district sleeps alone tonight, or a 30 day meme

outfit that i would never wear back home #1

relocating.

havinga birthday means having FOOD.

twenty is a round number.

leaving behind.

moving away

What's missing never changes.

i'm going back and forth / adding more adding less / trying to figure out the flow

back to the future.

about that large thing.

MEME!

Analytical Thinker (AT)

Adjectives which describe your type

These subjects could interest you

19 years ago I was an annoying baby.

me! me! meme!

WHEEL OF FUTURE!

i like popsicles on a stick. they always come a stick damnit.

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