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Nov. 23rd, 2004 07:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spiderpigThis SUXXORZ. I went for an audition today, in hopes of getting a place in the junior college of my choice, and I screwed up like really bad. As bad as Kimblee screwing Tucker. >__> Okay, maybe that analogy was a bit too graphic.
D: I'm t3h d3pr3ss3d right now. EL CAMINO REAL. Of all insane songs they just had to pick that one! During the practice I could do it okay (not as spectacular as that scarily good white uniformed guy), but I just froze up in front of a room full of people. I can more or less say good-bye to VJC for the first three months. Hopefully my O Level results alone can get me into that school (and band) after March. :(
The saddest thing is that I was the Assistant Section Leader for my old school band. Which oughta mean something. My tone was messed up, my fingerings were messed up... Argh. God hated me enough to give me the FLU TODAY. So my throat's all bleeeeeeargh.
;_____;
And after the whole disasterous fiasco, I went back to their band room to find out that by some freak accident, the lock to the case WAS SPOILT. Or rather, it wouldn't open. Crunch in the heart. :(
Tomorrow they shall be calling us one by one, and most probably saying, "We regret to inform you Alicia, that you didn't make it." to me. Oh well. But seriously, the other two alto guys were very very good. If you guys happen to chance upon this, you have my eternal admiration. At least until I find out if you're a douche-head or something ;D. Especially the white-uniformed guy (sounds like a PAP member). You are fucking good. *cries*
They've allowed those who didn't make it to join in for their concert. I'm considering it, because well... I really want to play a saxophone one more time. Just that it's kinda bleargh after today. My self-esteem just plummetted down. I thought my tone could save me, but it had to fuck up too. >__> The VJ people were kinda scary though. In different ways. NO OFFENSE TO YOU IF YO U'RE READING THIS! O_O Then again, I always let stress and pressure get to me. They had to keep telling us (most likely directed at me ;p) to relax and breathe in deeply. HAHAHAHAHA. >__> I WAS LIKE "SHITSHITHSHIT".
Argh! I MUST MAKE IT WITH MY O LEVEL RESUTLS! >______< 10 POINTS AND BELOW!!!!!!!!!!!
D: I'm t3h d3pr3ss3d right now. EL CAMINO REAL. Of all insane songs they just had to pick that one! During the practice I could do it okay (not as spectacular as that scarily good white uniformed guy), but I just froze up in front of a room full of people. I can more or less say good-bye to VJC for the first three months. Hopefully my O Level results alone can get me into that school (and band) after March. :(
The saddest thing is that I was the Assistant Section Leader for my old school band. Which oughta mean something. My tone was messed up, my fingerings were messed up... Argh. God hated me enough to give me the FLU TODAY. So my throat's all bleeeeeeargh.
;_____;
And after the whole disasterous fiasco, I went back to their band room to find out that by some freak accident, the lock to the case WAS SPOILT. Or rather, it wouldn't open. Crunch in the heart. :(
Tomorrow they shall be calling us one by one, and most probably saying, "We regret to inform you Alicia, that you didn't make it." to me. Oh well. But seriously, the other two alto guys were very very good. If you guys happen to chance upon this, you have my eternal admiration. At least until I find out if you're a douche-head or something ;D. Especially the white-uniformed guy (sounds like a PAP member). You are fucking good. *cries*
They've allowed those who didn't make it to join in for their concert. I'm considering it, because well... I really want to play a saxophone one more time. Just that it's kinda bleargh after today. My self-esteem just plummetted down. I thought my tone could save me, but it had to fuck up too. >__> The VJ people were kinda scary though. In different ways. NO OFFENSE TO YOU IF YO U'RE READING THIS! O_O Then again, I always let stress and pressure get to me. They had to keep telling us (most likely directed at me ;p) to relax and breathe in deeply. HAHAHAHAHA. >__> I WAS LIKE "SHITSHITHSHIT".
Argh! I MUST MAKE IT WITH MY O LEVEL RESUTLS! >______< 10 POINTS AND BELOW!!!!!!!!!!!
