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spiderpigIt's all about deadlines, life. (I'm puzzled at why people spell it as "datelines". Isn't it deadlines? Or am I missing out on some huge etymological origin of "dateline"?)
God, this semester sucks.
We were practicing casual speech in the TA class yesterday and after the "です"conditioning, I kept subconsciouly adding the copula at the end of every sentence even if I was speaking in casual form before. =A=;; What have you done to me, NUS? It's quite... hmm... interesting to hear my classmates moan about speaking in casual for being "it's so hard" but I guess - thank God for code-switching abilities and lovely manga practice since what, 12? - I'm a little more comfortable with speaking and switching into casual form than my classmates. (Hurhur, thank you Bunka for instilling that method in me! I have a much easier time switching between forms now!) I get mixed up now and then because my Chage & Aska fanboy of a tutor doesn't really express his questions properly.
We're getting a new TB teacher tomorrow and she's cute. And she's from the Kansai region? <3 Hurrah for Kansai!!!
And they're piling up, like dead carcasses at the bottom of a cliff. At the bottom of the most bottom-ness of a cliff because they melt away into the soil and gravel, and seep into the rock and become what killed them in the first place.
Two term papers due in exactly a month - one which is supposedly a shoo-in for an A, and another which shouldn't be too difficult; a response paper due this Friday which I've only just remembered - currently typing it out now; a History essay in exactly 7 days - I'm having trouble choosing a topic and I'm missing a vital reading for the question that I'm most probably attempting; and my second EN2111 essay is due in around 3 weeks.
What I'm deathly afraid of, is not being able to maintain my grades. The work I've gotten back so far reek of mediocrity (in a world filled with geniuses, mind you. Not in a "normal" world) and unfortunately for myself I got myself thrown into the lions' den of intellecutal power. :\ I dread getting back my midterms and essays because I never feel that I've been putting the effort that I should be putting in, save for a few tests and essays. It's that or I just feel mediocre. It's dreary stuff, to crank out essay after essay, crank in fact after fact of stuff that doesn't excite me.
My CAP must either go up, or stay where it is. I can't afford to let it slip. It's like a death threat: just trip up and you say goodbye to any chance at going to Waseda for 2 years. Injure yourself and you might not even get one year.
It's stifling, this air of nothingness. Somehow, this semester lacks the academic steam that I need to power my engine.
God, this semester sucks.
We were practicing casual speech in the TA class yesterday and after the "です"conditioning, I kept subconsciouly adding the copula at the end of every sentence even if I was speaking in casual form before. =A=;; What have you done to me, NUS? It's quite... hmm... interesting to hear my classmates moan about speaking in casual for being "it's so hard" but I guess - thank God for code-switching abilities and lovely manga practice since what, 12? - I'm a little more comfortable with speaking and switching into casual form than my classmates. (Hurhur, thank you Bunka for instilling that method in me! I have a much easier time switching between forms now!) I get mixed up now and then because my Chage & Aska fanboy of a tutor doesn't really express his questions properly.
We're getting a new TB teacher tomorrow and she's cute. And she's from the Kansai region? <3 Hurrah for Kansai!!!
And they're piling up, like dead carcasses at the bottom of a cliff. At the bottom of the most bottom-ness of a cliff because they melt away into the soil and gravel, and seep into the rock and become what killed them in the first place.
Two term papers due in exactly a month - one which is supposedly a shoo-in for an A, and another which shouldn't be too difficult; a response paper due this Friday which I've only just remembered - currently typing it out now; a History essay in exactly 7 days - I'm having trouble choosing a topic and I'm missing a vital reading for the question that I'm most probably attempting; and my second EN2111 essay is due in around 3 weeks.
What I'm deathly afraid of, is not being able to maintain my grades. The work I've gotten back so far reek of mediocrity (in a world filled with geniuses, mind you. Not in a "normal" world) and unfortunately for myself I got myself thrown into the lions' den of intellecutal power. :\ I dread getting back my midterms and essays because I never feel that I've been putting the effort that I should be putting in, save for a few tests and essays. It's that or I just feel mediocre. It's dreary stuff, to crank out essay after essay, crank in fact after fact of stuff that doesn't excite me.
My CAP must either go up, or stay where it is. I can't afford to let it slip. It's like a death threat: just trip up and you say goodbye to any chance at going to Waseda for 2 years. Injure yourself and you might not even get one year.
It's stifling, this air of nothingness. Somehow, this semester lacks the academic steam that I need to power my engine.
