if you've got music, you've got soul
Apr. 28th, 2007 05:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spiderpigSo sick, so sick of being tired
And oh so tired of being sick
I mean it, even in its literal sense. I'm sitting here in front of the keyboard after a two hour nap. I hadn't intended to take a nap and curl up into a ball on the sofa, but my head's still throbbing and my nose is doing long distance running at the moment so I'm a little worse for the wear. Doggone it, it must be Hayfever. Actually no, I have no idea what hayfever really is but it seems rather funny to attribute my flu to something else rather foreign.
It's at times like this when I fantasise. Or if you please, hallucinate. What I'd do for a swaddle of Egyptian Cotton blankets around me, and you(OH TAMAKI!) by my side. Hmm, scratch that image - you don't have to be here throughout the whole thing. A call, a few words and perhaps a card - it's be too much for me to expect a visit from you - would be more than enough to perk me up. Sometimes words does better than good ol' chicken soup. Make fun of my horribly unreliable immune system, joke about how haggard and gross I look when I'm ill, say anything at all.
I didn't want it to mean that much to me.
I didn't want law to mean so much to me. I hadn't expect it to swell to the monster that it is now. It's a touchy subject for me and everytime I talk about it I become Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde in an instant. It isn't a passing fad - chinese drama serials have well ingrained in me the rush of being a criminal lawyer. I had the same rush when I saw Subhas Anandan on TV last night. (Haha, it sounds weird because he's really an old Indian man.)
Yet in all the interviews I've been to (only two, actually), I've always maintained my original perspective on things. That is to say, my literature heart. I may have a law inclined mind, but my heart is still at its very base, literature.
I want to reconcile these two. I either become a lawyer who writes, or a writer who pens crime fiction. XD
I wish I had someone who could understand this turmoil.
EDIT:
The Romeo & Juliet quote from the literaryquotes community sent me into a violently passionate want of reading R&J again. Cliched it may be but it is and will probably forever will be my favourite Shakespearean play for the feelings it can evoke in me.
EDIT:
I think I'm going to attempt exercising one of these days. :D
And oh so tired of being sick
I mean it, even in its literal sense. I'm sitting here in front of the keyboard after a two hour nap. I hadn't intended to take a nap and curl up into a ball on the sofa, but my head's still throbbing and my nose is doing long distance running at the moment so I'm a little worse for the wear. Doggone it, it must be Hayfever. Actually no, I have no idea what hayfever really is but it seems rather funny to attribute my flu to something else rather foreign.
It's at times like this when I fantasise. Or if you please, hallucinate. What I'd do for a swaddle of Egyptian Cotton blankets around me, and you(OH TAMAKI!) by my side. Hmm, scratch that image - you don't have to be here throughout the whole thing. A call, a few words and perhaps a card - it's be too much for me to expect a visit from you - would be more than enough to perk me up. Sometimes words does better than good ol' chicken soup. Make fun of my horribly unreliable immune system, joke about how haggard and gross I look when I'm ill, say anything at all.
I didn't want it to mean that much to me.
I didn't want law to mean so much to me. I hadn't expect it to swell to the monster that it is now. It's a touchy subject for me and everytime I talk about it I become Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde in an instant. It isn't a passing fad - chinese drama serials have well ingrained in me the rush of being a criminal lawyer. I had the same rush when I saw Subhas Anandan on TV last night. (Haha, it sounds weird because he's really an old Indian man.)
Yet in all the interviews I've been to (only two, actually), I've always maintained my original perspective on things. That is to say, my literature heart. I may have a law inclined mind, but my heart is still at its very base, literature.
I want to reconcile these two. I either become a lawyer who writes, or a writer who pens crime fiction. XD
I wish I had someone who could understand this turmoil.
EDIT:
The Romeo & Juliet quote from the literaryquotes community sent me into a violently passionate want of reading R&J again. Cliched it may be but it is and will probably forever will be my favourite Shakespearean play for the feelings it can evoke in me.
EDIT:
I think I'm going to attempt exercising one of these days. :D
