withdrawal symptoms

[spiderpig]

memory

memory is consistently
inconsistent.
beligerent.
malignant.
rots your brain.

i can't keep looking back in the past
rifling through archives,
getting lost in the dusty tomes of
yesterday.

the memory of you
of the us that never became us
the we that never made it to we
the facade, the dream
I was like an empire by force.

i have become dependent,
dope,
distant,
dumb.
disappointed.