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12:22 D: missed the Noh demonstration. am slightly saddened. #

13:26 Ugh. No one should be forced to wake up at 8 during the holidays. #

04:37 To-do later: finish Frankenstein, start+finish jap transport essay, read Pinter, email-interview H. Alright. Will wake up by 12. 忙しい ◎△◎ #

04:39 キマグレンは最高なのだ！ #

05:29 早稲田に絶対行きま！ 神様、私のお願いを叶えてくれる？ #

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there is only one real wish i have at the moment.

And that is to be (t)here, this time next year.

I've been wanting to be there since ages ago and I just need to be there soon (I can wait a year!) or I think I'll just collapse internally. It seems all very trivial but a whole lot of my sanity relies on that one place, that plot of land where I could be will be spending my third year in. It's desperation, there isn't any other word for it. I desperately need to be there.

After that initial disappointment a week back, I just really hope (and I'm praying, hard) that I can get at the very least, this wish granted.

I do want this, but more importantly, I need this. The course of my life - the next 20 years or so - will depend on whether I'm able to get there. I sound delirious right now, I sound right at the other extreme of "normal" but argh.

Please God.

( self-bashing? probably so. )