neutered.

As it is, I can't settle, I want someone who is fierce and ill love me until death and know that love is as strong as death, and be on my side for ever and ever. I want someone who will destroy and be destroyed by me.

Oranges are not the only fruit, Jeanette Winterson

Not particularly one of the texts I like, but I suspect that it'll grow on me, especially if it has lines like these. I'm ambivalent towards Winterson's writings. Oranges generally rubs me the wrong way (I don't know why, but it does) but I do appreciate it.

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15:32 why is hobbysearch telling me that my card isn't validated? I have been shopping with them for nearly a year! #

16:19 =A=;; seriously. gender equality is overrated. when i keep to it, i get kao beh-ed; when i don't, i get kao-behed also. #

01:51 i probably sound hypocritical saying this because i want one ^^;;: it's not whether you have an SLR or not, its your skills. =A=;; #

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What's missing never changes.

"I always feel like I'm struggling to become someone else. Like I'm trying to find a new place, grab hold of a new life, a new personality. I guess it's part of growing up, yet it's also an attempt to reinvent myself. By becoming a different me, I could free myself of everything. I seriously believed I could escape myself- as long as I made the effort. But I always hit a dead end. No matter where I go, I still end up me. What's missing never changes. The scenery may change, but I'm still the same old incomplete person. The same missing elements torture me with a hunger that I can never satisfy. I guess that lack itself is as close as I'll come to define myself. For your sake, I'd like to become a new person. It may not be easy, but if I give it my best shot, perhaps I can manage to change. The truth is, though, if put in the same situation again, I might very well do the same thing all over. I might very well hurt you all over again. I can't promise anything. That's what I meant when I said I had no right. I just don't have the confidence to win over that force in me."

South of the Border, West of the Sun - Murakami Haruki

Hello Murakami, you always know how to make my day a whole lot better.

(And I walked past Hemingyay just now. The small joys of life try to salvage my huge disappointments!)