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I can't sleep I'm too worried. I don't know why I'm worried.

I shouldn't be.

should i?

Why does it always seem like I make the wrong choices. Secondary school, coming to CJC (which I'm trying so hard to insist that I'm alright, when I'm not), speaking nonsense when I can shut up, keeping quiet when I should speak, learning Japanese even though I love it and am alright at it is probably a mistake, and let's not forget the whole pasta incident of said years ago.

To sum up my life so far: I died and went to hell. When God Almighty decided to give me another chance, I blew it and got sent to hell again. Now I'm stuck in limbo.

:)

So then, I quote one of the promo GP questions: "Should there always be choices?" (okay, not entirely accurate but who gives a fuck)

T.B.C kids.

again i'm putting up the advert for used GCE A Level literature texts.

kthx. i'd like to have them? i'll pay of course. duh.

and there she goes

Bad news people,

You'll see me in J2 next year. Ahahaha.

The post-mortem was good, but not satisfactory. Like how I improved on History but not enough. And how I managed to mantain my B3 for GP despite doing exceptionally badly for my essay. I can't believe I did that badly. Good news though, I got my well-deserved B for Literature. Hopefully the Lit Department will see fit to approach me for the S paper.

And so I'm free from supplementary papers and ready to get started on the dreaded holiday homework.

I'm severely tempted to get the 15 inch Powerbook instead of the 12-inch iBook I'm buying at the end of this year. Alas monetary constraints. how lah.

... Actually there's no use of me getting the Powerbook. I'd have no money to get photoshop. I already don't have money to get photoshop for my iBook. Hihi! Any friends who have the mac version of Photoshop willing to lend it to me? :D

......................why do I even need photoshop and the powerbook in the first place. I'm just a pseudo-artist. I haven't CG-ed anything for God knows how long. A year? My oC skills I think are null because of the lack of practice... Nah. I'll think about it some other time. But still! POWERBOOK LEH. Someone lend me money!

I'm still reeling from the absymal GP essay grade.

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I AM SIBEH STRESSED.

MAWAII EXPEDITION. BINTAIN OVERSEAS COMMUNITY PROJECT.

BAND BAND BAND LIBRARY WORK.

BANDFEST.

HISTORY HOLIDAY HOMEWORK.

PW.

I AM GOING MAD. I WANT TO DROP MY NYAA GOLD AWARD BUT I DON'T WANT TO. I AM GOING NUTS.

WHY AM I TRYING TO BE A SUPERACHIEVER WHEN I'M NOT.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK.

Everyone who knows me knows that I love band and not clubbing. But its at times like these that I get really frazzled. It's not that I can't take stress. It's more of a choice problem. A time management problem. I don't know if its worth it, sacrificing my own plans for band. Sacrifcing my life for awards and

i don't know.