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spiderpigUgh. I hate today for so many, many many reasons.
I was correct, the PE teachers did harrass me a bit for my lack of running. Issac Lim made me, Dinah and Melvin do 18 rounds around the track. Of course we didn't. I think we did complete half of it, walking almost the whole time. I hate this stupid thing called TAF. I hate the fact that I'm fat. If I knew, back then in primary 4, that I'd be so horrendously fat compared to my naturally stick-thin self in the past, I wouldn't have gorged on all the food. One of the biggest mistakes I've ever made.Stupid stupid stupid. What's worse the the total unfit-ness of it all. I wasn't the most healthy or fit person before but now I'm like some stupid cow made to walk 10000 miles for grass.
I messed up my Economics test because a) stupid run didn't give me time to do last minute revision, b) being the unfit retarded fuck that I am, I was exhausted and actually fell asleep during the test. WTF I FELL ASLEEP. Thus, I didn't even have enough time to complete the paper. Fuckfuckfcuk. Data-Response-Questions tomorrow. I can't screw that up too.S Paper larh... S Paper... I shall go redo my economics essay. Mr Tan has been asking for it. :(
I'm melting
I'm glad that I've sort of given up emotionally on that person. It's all a lie though, I know it myself. Probably, the moment when he smiles at me again, I'll just crumble up into a million pieces. Oh well. I'm resigned to the fact that I'll always be like that. It's great though, to pretend that I'm devoid from all sappy emotions and crap.
I'm trying so hard to think of something happy to write about. Something funny, something that lightens my heart. I haven't found anything yet. Well, maybe you could count me getting a few more hours in sleep a rather happy event.
It's hard to say that I was wrong.
Right now, what I'd love to do is just curl up into afat ball and sleep. Forever perhaps. And when I wake up, I'll be old and I'll go back to sleep.
EDIT: I need someone to talk to, to complain to, to just basically listen to me screaming and shouting as I go into a delirium of the adrenaline rush.I need you. Then again, I don't want to annoy or burden people into listening to me for the sake of listening. I wish there was someone who would do so willingly. :\
Much to ask from this world, much less I can give in return.
EDITEDIT: Rejoice my fellow human beings! For Baba is happy now! :D
I was correct, the PE teachers did harrass me a bit for my lack of running. Issac Lim made me, Dinah and Melvin do 18 rounds around the track. Of course we didn't. I think we did complete half of it, walking almost the whole time. I hate this stupid thing called TAF. I hate the fact that I'm fat. If I knew, back then in primary 4, that I'd be so horrendously fat compared to my naturally stick-thin self in the past, I wouldn't have gorged on all the food. One of the biggest mistakes I've ever made.
I messed up my Economics test because a) stupid run didn't give me time to do last minute revision, b) being the unfit retarded fuck that I am, I was exhausted and actually fell asleep during the test. WTF I FELL ASLEEP. Thus, I didn't even have enough time to complete the paper. Fuckfuckfcuk. Data-Response-Questions tomorrow. I can't screw that up too.
I'm melting
I'm glad that I've sort of given up emotionally on that person. It's all a lie though, I know it myself. Probably, the moment when he smiles at me again, I'll just crumble up into a million pieces. Oh well. I'm resigned to the fact that I'll always be like that. It's great though, to pretend that I'm devoid from all sappy emotions and crap.
I'm trying so hard to think of something happy to write about. Something funny, something that lightens my heart. I haven't found anything yet. Well, maybe you could count me getting a few more hours in sleep a rather happy event.
It's hard to say that I was wrong.
Right now, what I'd love to do is just curl up into a
EDIT: I need someone to talk to, to complain to, to just basically listen to me screaming and shouting as I go into a delirium of the adrenaline rush.
Much to ask from this world, much less I can give in return.
EDITEDIT: Rejoice my fellow human beings! For Baba is happy now! :D
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Date: 2005-08-15 01:49 pm (UTC)gvs
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Date: 2005-08-15 01:51 pm (UTC)O_O CHINESE? You're asking the person did so badly in her Higher Chinese course. Well, I guess I could help. :x
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