y'know...

[spiderpig]

I wanted to write about how despondent I feel, how I'm such a jerk with people I know, how I want to be there for my friends, how I want them to be there for me, yet there's no one. But then I thought, hey! Why am I being so depressive? I'm young! I'm not smart or pretty or anything, but that doesn't deprive me from being happy.

none of you understand me. then again, do I want you to understand me? yes i do. it's like that dream of mine... full of metaphors and enigmas.

I'm going to try and keep my spirits up. For my own sake. I'm not going to let myself get affected by whatever because there's no one there for me if I do get myself in deep water. No one's going to help me tread water.

:D

Such is the tragedy of life.

Then again, it's my fault for being a bastard the whole time.

i love your company

I'm so sorry for being me. I'm sorry for wishing for people things that will never come true.