A state of confusion
May. 11th, 2005 11:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spiderpigI don't know what to feel anymore.
After waiting nearly a week to get back in band, I don't know whether such anticipation was needed. It was a mixture of pure sadness and joyfulness when the I heard about what we were going to play today.
Seventh Night of July
Overture Jubiloso
Japanese Graffitti IV and
Rhapsody for Hanukkah
All of which was my favourite songs. All of which have wonderful, beautiful alto saxophone melodies and solos in them. It's times like this when I'm heart-wrenchingly depressed when I play on my baritone. I want so badly to play those well-known frains. Hearing them being played, I nearly just cried. It's not that I don't like my bari, or that I don't like the wonderful bass line. All these songs hold this really special place in my heart. When I played those solos, practiced my ass off... The experience of it all, I can never forget. And now, I'm reduced to pumping the bass line (which is fantastic in its own right) and the occasional melody. The baritone is such a heavy responsibility and I miss my alto parts so much.
So imagine my elation when I looked at Japanese Graffitti IV's score and noticed that I had the same part as my old first alto part. Oh God. Just. Yes. I probably have never played with such heartfelt emotion since the concert in SN. The phrasing, the tone, everything was so seemingly perfect. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Other than that, I didn't really have any main parts for the rest of the songs, so imagine the amount of emotion I put in to JG. <3<3<3 I guess it all paid off because Sir was all, "Saxes, you all should follow Alicia! Learn from her phrasing! Get her to teach you!" or something along those lines. Let me be egotisical for today guys, I have a severe lack of confidence at the moment.
I was selected to be one of the two people representing the band for the Leadership Training Camp during June (the other one being Jonathan). Like wtf? I was truly shocked, afterall I'm just a second-intaker. My June Holidays are so packed. I have the Pre-U seminar and this LTC.
Of course, I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't honored/please/omfglikeyay about the whole thing. To be nominated, to be thought that I actually possess some leadership potential, its a gratifying thing. What Sir said later was even more ":D" to my ears. I'd like to think that I've got a few more people, other than my parents, who actually think that 'hey, this girl is good'.Eeh! Eeh! Warning! Ego-pig!
Ironically, if I went to VJC or some other prestigious JC, I'd probably be shunted away in the corner. CJC has opened up so many more windows for me, and I'm grateful for that.
Dinner was weird. I felt like a bloody gooseberry. The ride home was even worse. LIGHTBULB. Meh.
OH HEY. SIR WANTS TO START A JAZZ BAND. Like omfgyaykfja;dfjare. And we're going to have concerts, and trips to Thailand... The main band, not the jazz band, that is. <3<3<3
So the moral of the story is: DON'T LEAVE BAND, CJCSB BANDITS. I BEESEECH YOU. The whole place wouldn't be the same. And erm, don't abuse emoticons like I do.
o__o Kinokuniya can only source 3 out of the 9 books I need. One of the three being a Cold War book. What is this?! I'm just going to order online. :\ They take freakin' long too.
Um yeah. And I'm supposed to be finishing my Cold War term paper. HAHA. PROCRASTINATOR IN YOUR MIDST. RED ALERT. Mkay. I'm gone.
EDIT: OH YES. I forgot to say something! I was correct!!!!111oneone He wasn't waving at me! =D
After waiting nearly a week to get back in band, I don't know whether such anticipation was needed. It was a mixture of pure sadness and joyfulness when the I heard about what we were going to play today.
Seventh Night of July
Overture Jubiloso
Japanese Graffitti IV and
Rhapsody for Hanukkah
All of which was my favourite songs. All of which have wonderful, beautiful alto saxophone melodies and solos in them. It's times like this when I'm heart-wrenchingly depressed when I play on my baritone. I want so badly to play those well-known frains. Hearing them being played, I nearly just cried. It's not that I don't like my bari, or that I don't like the wonderful bass line. All these songs hold this really special place in my heart. When I played those solos, practiced my ass off... The experience of it all, I can never forget. And now, I'm reduced to pumping the bass line (which is fantastic in its own right) and the occasional melody. The baritone is such a heavy responsibility and I miss my alto parts so much.
So imagine my elation when I looked at Japanese Graffitti IV's score and noticed that I had the same part as my old first alto part. Oh God. Just. Yes. I probably have never played with such heartfelt emotion since the concert in SN. The phrasing, the tone, everything was so seemingly perfect. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Other than that, I didn't really have any main parts for the rest of the songs, so imagine the amount of emotion I put in to JG. <3<3<3 I guess it all paid off because Sir was all, "Saxes, you all should follow Alicia! Learn from her phrasing! Get her to teach you!" or something along those lines. Let me be egotisical for today guys, I have a severe lack of confidence at the moment.
I was selected to be one of the two people representing the band for the Leadership Training Camp during June (the other one being Jonathan). Like wtf? I was truly shocked, afterall I'm just a second-intaker. My June Holidays are so packed. I have the Pre-U seminar and this LTC.
Of course, I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't honored/please/omfglikeyay about the whole thing. To be nominated, to be thought that I actually possess some leadership potential, its a gratifying thing. What Sir said later was even more ":D" to my ears. I'd like to think that I've got a few more people, other than my parents, who actually think that 'hey, this girl is good'.
Ironically, if I went to VJC or some other prestigious JC, I'd probably be shunted away in the corner. CJC has opened up so many more windows for me, and I'm grateful for that.
Dinner was weird. I felt like a bloody gooseberry. The ride home was even worse. LIGHTBULB. Meh.
OH HEY. SIR WANTS TO START A JAZZ BAND. Like omfgyaykfja;dfjare. And we're going to have concerts, and trips to Thailand... The main band, not the jazz band, that is. <3<3<3
So the moral of the story is: DON'T LEAVE BAND, CJCSB BANDITS. I BEESEECH YOU. The whole place wouldn't be the same. And erm, don't abuse emoticons like I do.
o__o Kinokuniya can only source 3 out of the 9 books I need. One of the three being a Cold War book. What is this?! I'm just going to order online. :\ They take freakin' long too.
Um yeah. And I'm supposed to be finishing my Cold War term paper. HAHA. PROCRASTINATOR IN YOUR MIDST. RED ALERT. Mkay. I'm gone.
EDIT: OH YES. I forgot to say something! I was correct!!!!111oneone He wasn't waving at me! =D
