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I quite miss talking to Brian a.k.a Doughboy online. Been ages since I had a good chat with a good guy friend. TeamMan is always busy with army (booooo!) and someone's always missing from our orignal group of 4.5 haha. So tonight I'm rather happy. I finally caught up with Doughboy after a few months of verbal procrastination and had a nice time just talking about NS, life and everything else in between. Now, T04 just needs to get their hands on a certain Perpie so we can have a proper class outting and really talk the walls down.
Last Saturday while we were celebrating Celeste's birthday, we ended up sitting at the steps of the old Supreme Court in a somewhat glamourously drab position and just talking about the good old days. Strange how just a mere 5 months can make one age thirty years. Tessa probably summarised the night the best. There's just something about this mismatched group of people that brings us together again and again, in front of old war monuments with a brass band belting out tunes behind us, to traipsing across the Padang and taking cursory glances at the night sky.
My idealism has turned my life upside down. Sometimes I wish I was a full-blooded cynic and ready to turn my nose up at anything and everything. Yet it's that small ounce of hope lodged deep within me that insteads fucks my outlook on things. Having something to believe in and to want something so desperately is fine and dandy. Your life has direction, has focused. But has anyone stopped to take a look at the other side of the coin? Vanda Miss Joaquims don't like to be ignored. Optimism brings you forward, but when you get disappointed... The fall is hard. 1 millimetre or 1 mile, the fall is painful and something no one should have too much of. Note I said "shouldn't have too much of". Falling, disappointment, dashed hopes and dreams are all necessary for "building a better person" as the books put it so nicely. But too much of a good thing is always a bad thing, if you pardon my use of the cliche. I've stumbled and fallen too many times and it's taking its toll on me. I can be horrendously optimistic and idealistic about life, but its eating me away. I'm only left with something resembling a bright supernova, but with nothing underneath.
I'm about to implode.
If you haven't heard, I'm definitely heading to NUS now. Infer what you like from that line, but Clementi/Dover/Buona Vista here I come! I forsee many long lonely bus rides, perfect for gazing out of the window into the crisscross of streets and blinking traffic lights. I hope there's a double-decker bus available. I like sitting at the top and being close to the trees, and slightly closer to the sky. We're only separated by that sheet of plexi-glassand millions of atmospheric distance between us.
My job has taken a turn for the worse, and I think I'm going to be in for one hell of a last week starting Monday because of my extremely bad fuckup. Then again, lucky the fuckup was here and not at some big law firm like Rodyk & Davidson or Lee & Lee. :D() Cue my sheepish grin.
Other news! Just started playing the GE Pre-OBT. Hmm, which server should I concentrate on... Well looks like I'm quite screwed. I mean, my ACER laptop likes to shut down after a mere 15 minutes of play. Overheating and something gone wrong after I tried out the C&C3 demo. Grace Park, you screwed my computer's innards! There's no way I can even get started on playing GE. :\ I only managed to create one character before my computer royally shut itself down. I've fished out an old laptop cooler in hopes of alleviating the situation, and I'll try it out later. Come on, give me at least one hour of GE a day. That's all I ask. I'm a simple person!
OH MY GOD GE RAID PARTY 16 JUNE! I'm so glad I'm jobless by then!!!! I can plant myself there at Zouk (I have never ever been into Zouk and this is a great excuse to get in!) and hopefully catch a glimpse of Hakkyu Kim, the man who stole away many hours of my life. XD![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
tsubaki_! You're going to be there right?
I'll be heading down to Vivocity from around 12pm-6pm for the Samsung Guitar Hero II challenge. I'm just there to take a loook, don't get me wrong. I have never touched an Xbox 360 controller and tomorrow would be the worst time to try. Though I pray to God that if I do have to play the game, my inante button mashing skills and my nights with Frets on Fire will pull me through. Mmm. That top prize of a screen looks mighty fine. I need a new screen damnit but me never playing GH2 before let alone on the XBox would be a suicide mission. I can think of better ways of embarrassing myself.
So the gist of it is, please pop by and say hello? I'll be by myself (because other people will be too busy with their other friends :\) and trying to blend into walls in my best Wallflower way possible so friends are more than welcome! :)
Oh fuck. I forgot that today was the 19th and there's the FASS Open House which is where I'm supposed to be right now. Argh. All this emo-ing about and antisocialism has brought me to this.
Anyway, it's time that I go and practice button mashing on FoF.
Last Saturday while we were celebrating Celeste's birthday, we ended up sitting at the steps of the old Supreme Court in a somewhat glamourously drab position and just talking about the good old days. Strange how just a mere 5 months can make one age thirty years. Tessa probably summarised the night the best. There's just something about this mismatched group of people that brings us together again and again, in front of old war monuments with a brass band belting out tunes behind us, to traipsing across the Padang and taking cursory glances at the night sky.
My idealism has turned my life upside down. Sometimes I wish I was a full-blooded cynic and ready to turn my nose up at anything and everything. Yet it's that small ounce of hope lodged deep within me that insteads fucks my outlook on things. Having something to believe in and to want something so desperately is fine and dandy. Your life has direction, has focused. But has anyone stopped to take a look at the other side of the coin? Vanda Miss Joaquims don't like to be ignored. Optimism brings you forward, but when you get disappointed... The fall is hard. 1 millimetre or 1 mile, the fall is painful and something no one should have too much of. Note I said "shouldn't have too much of". Falling, disappointment, dashed hopes and dreams are all necessary for "building a better person" as the books put it so nicely. But too much of a good thing is always a bad thing, if you pardon my use of the cliche. I've stumbled and fallen too many times and it's taking its toll on me. I can be horrendously optimistic and idealistic about life, but its eating me away. I'm only left with something resembling a bright supernova, but with nothing underneath.
I'm about to implode.
If you haven't heard, I'm definitely heading to NUS now. Infer what you like from that line, but Clementi/Dover/Buona Vista here I come! I forsee many long lonely bus rides, perfect for gazing out of the window into the crisscross of streets and blinking traffic lights. I hope there's a double-decker bus available. I like sitting at the top and being close to the trees, and slightly closer to the sky. We're only separated by that sheet of plexi-glass
My job has taken a turn for the worse, and I think I'm going to be in for one hell of a last week starting Monday because of my extremely bad fuckup. Then again, lucky the fuckup was here and not at some big law firm like Rodyk & Davidson or Lee & Lee. :D() Cue my sheepish grin.
Other news! Just started playing the GE Pre-OBT. Hmm, which server should I concentrate on... Well looks like I'm quite screwed. I mean, my ACER laptop likes to shut down after a mere 15 minutes of play. Overheating and something gone wrong after I tried out the C&C3 demo. Grace Park, you screwed my computer's innards! There's no way I can even get started on playing GE. :\ I only managed to create one character before my computer royally shut itself down. I've fished out an old laptop cooler in hopes of alleviating the situation, and I'll try it out later. Come on, give me at least one hour of GE a day. That's all I ask. I'm a simple person!
OH MY GOD GE RAID PARTY 16 JUNE! I'm so glad I'm jobless by then!!!! I can plant myself there at Zouk (I have never ever been into Zouk and this is a great excuse to get in!) and hopefully catch a glimpse of Hakkyu Kim, the man who stole away many hours of my life. XD
tsubaki_! You're going to be there right?I'll be heading down to Vivocity from around 12pm-6pm for the Samsung Guitar Hero II challenge. I'm just there to take a loook, don't get me wrong. I have never touched an Xbox 360 controller and tomorrow would be the worst time to try. Though I pray to God that if I do have to play the game, my inante button mashing skills and my nights with Frets on Fire will pull me through. Mmm. That top prize of a screen looks mighty fine. I need a new screen damnit but me never playing GH2 before let alone on the XBox would be a suicide mission. I can think of better ways of embarrassing myself.
So the gist of it is, please pop by and say hello? I'll be by myself (because other people will be too busy with their other friends :\) and trying to blend into walls in my best Wallflower way possible so friends are more than welcome! :)
Oh fuck. I forgot that today was the 19th and there's the FASS Open House which is where I'm supposed to be right now. Argh. All this emo-ing about and antisocialism has brought me to this.
Anyway, it's time that I go and practice button mashing on FoF.
