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Interesting, very interesting. I don't know if Xiao An still reads my blog (the whole friggin' back row of T06 did for like, say 2 weeks?) but HELLO I KNOW YOUR AUNTIE!! Or rather, my mother knows your auntie. O: The world is terribly and scarily very small.
So the first three days of the lunar new year (oh let's be extremely snobbish and name it the chinesenew year) have come and gone. In a way, it's been the same old same old just like every other year. Otherwise, this year has been a refreshing change from the monotonyhi dyslexia of previous years where red is the new black.
(Now we all know that this is my place to be self-indulgent and for you all to wade in my ego, ergo it flowing out through my pores like mountain dew from leaves)
I've made a decent haul from the Chinese New Year, no thanks to surprisingly generous relatives (did they all strike the lottery or something?) and working two public holidays. Enough to buy a new camera and not go into debt for it. Hurrah for relatives! I love you all and your big fat wallets!
This year was slightly different. I got harrassed a bit more, due to the impending A Level results and all the questions like "What are you doing now?" and "What are your plans for the future?" I grimace slightly everytime I say, "I'm considering Law." It's a farce. I admit that five years ago, I'd want nothing more than to be PHOENIX WRIGHT ACE ATTORNEY and defend the crap out of criminals and victims alike (blame Chinese drama serials kthx). Then I kinda grew out of it, that and the fact that I was convinced that my grades were totally crap and my mum kept on telling me how saturated the market was with lawyers. So I switched my love for writing and arguing into journalism.
I admit that now, I have reverted back to wanting to do Law because my father would love for me to do so. He's convinced that I somehow, am a lawyer (like wtf, I think he's nuts) and that somehow I'd magically qualify.
And,
I've been visiting my father's friends' houses these past few days and it hit me. Opulence right in the face. Security. The means to put anything on credit and not worry about "Can I actually pay for that plasma screen tv?". The means to send my brother to an overseas university so he can pursue his dream of playing soccer. The only way that I can give my dad a great retirement (my mum has her own back, it's my dad I'm worried about). I can't enjoy my life by starting out as a journalist. I will like what I'm doing, but there will always be bills, bills and more bills. I cannot indulge in life. So entirely for materialistic means, I will probably choose Law over Literature.
Unless I can do both.
Practicality or idealism?
I want to do both.
Even though it will kill me.
Otherwise, it was a completely angsty CNY. I angsted over having messages being lost in the ether of the internet, I angsted over my parents fighting in the car over which road to turn into, I angsted about work, I angsted about being angsty.
I'm meeting up with the SNSaxes tomorrow, though I'm not exactly sure who's going to show up, and I'm kinda apprehensive and excited. I haven't seen any of them for ages and well... I'm not too good with social functions. BUT SATURDAY IS GMUFC DAY! Or at least, I'd get to meet Sim and Yen! =D Hurrah for the CNY and excuses to visit people!
Okay. Back to GE.
So the first three days of the lunar new year (oh let's be extremely snobbish and name it the chinesenew year) have come and gone. In a way, it's been the same old same old just like every other year. Otherwise, this year has been a refreshing change from the monotony
(Now we all know that this is my place to be self-indulgent and for you all to wade in my ego, ergo it flowing out through my pores like mountain dew from leaves)
I've made a decent haul from the Chinese New Year, no thanks to surprisingly generous relatives (did they all strike the lottery or something?) and working two public holidays. Enough to buy a new camera and not go into debt for it. Hurrah for relatives! I love you all and your big fat wallets!
This year was slightly different. I got harrassed a bit more, due to the impending A Level results and all the questions like "What are you doing now?" and "What are your plans for the future?" I grimace slightly everytime I say, "I'm considering Law." It's a farce. I admit that five years ago, I'd want nothing more than to be PHOENIX WRIGHT ACE ATTORNEY and defend the crap out of criminals and victims alike (blame Chinese drama serials kthx). Then I kinda grew out of it, that and the fact that I was convinced that my grades were totally crap and my mum kept on telling me how saturated the market was with lawyers. So I switched my love for writing and arguing into journalism.
I admit that now, I have reverted back to wanting to do Law because my father would love for me to do so. He's convinced that I somehow, am a lawyer (like wtf, I think he's nuts) and that somehow I'd magically qualify.
And,
I've been visiting my father's friends' houses these past few days and it hit me. Opulence right in the face. Security. The means to put anything on credit and not worry about "Can I actually pay for that plasma screen tv?". The means to send my brother to an overseas university so he can pursue his dream of playing soccer. The only way that I can give my dad a great retirement (my mum has her own back, it's my dad I'm worried about). I can't enjoy my life by starting out as a journalist. I will like what I'm doing, but there will always be bills, bills and more bills. I cannot indulge in life. So entirely for materialistic means, I will probably choose Law over Literature.
Practicality or idealism?
I want to do both.
Even though it will kill me.
Otherwise, it was a completely angsty CNY. I angsted over having messages being lost in the ether of the internet, I angsted over my parents fighting in the car over which road to turn into, I angsted about work, I angsted about being angsty.
I'm meeting up with the SNSaxes tomorrow, though I'm not exactly sure who's going to show up, and I'm kinda apprehensive and excited. I haven't seen any of them for ages and well... I'm not too good with social functions. BUT SATURDAY IS GMUFC DAY! Or at least, I'd get to meet Sim and Yen! =D Hurrah for the CNY and excuses to visit people!
Okay. Back to GE.
