oh this sucks

So I wake up early on this bright and sunny Monday morning to print out over 20 pages of reports on the US economy because I totally spazzed out on the HCI 2006 Prelim paper and don't want to appear like a f00l in front of Mrs Neo today. Mmm so yeah, I have stuff from Merrill Lynch (which I'm proud to say of which I immediately recognized! the benefits of working in a shipping company!!), the IMF website and this fucking huge 21 page document on Singapore's Exchange Rate policy. Of which I stupidly printed the multicoloured cover. Now my coloured and black ink are running really low. D: Gah!

If only economics wasn't tested the way it's tested in the A Levels. I mean, all these force feeding and force expulsion of information on a few sheets of paper. What goes?! I'm not so much of an idiot, but I actually like reading all these huge documents which give me papercuts because I feel really clever and stuff when I understand what they're talking about and actually it's all common sense.

But yes, I do not possess enough common sense to write a decent essay. :\

And I cannot use a calculator without pressing at least one button wrongly - which totally destroys my hopes of becoming an Economics major. Hahahaha. :\

Anyhoo, the whole point of this post initially was to rant on the effects of coffee. I have an effing stomach ache after drinking a can which has definitely woken me up and I'm beginning to think that perhaps, I'm developing an allergy to coffee? The Coffee Frapp at Starbucks the other day had the same effect on me. AUGH. PAIN. PAIN.

Maybe I should lay off the caffeine for a while.

WHAT NO! HOW CAN I! I NEED IT TO KEEP ME GOING!!!! SPAZZZZ!!!!!111oneone

Anyone has $450 to spare? I feel like owning the 1/4 Rei Ayanami from Urban Attic. Seriously though, I wouldn't fork out that kind of money for Rei *gets pummelled by Rei fanboys*. $450 is nearly half of what I need to buy a PS3 of which would clearly be more satisfactory. FF13!!!!!!!

Yarrr, anyway, I need to go and read.

EDIT: Hello there I totally love David Spade so there goes the secret about me liking effeminate and skinny men. D:

EDIT:
Oh my dear God. They made a Transformers movie. =A=;;;

EDIT @ 5:12pm:
OH MY GOD. I am stressed beyond means of recognition. Fuck fuck fuck. I know that being shown RJC scripts that garner 17, 20 (WHAT?!?!?!?) and 15 (OVERALL A HI!!) of a girl who's on an MOE scholarship to Warwick studying history is supposed to be like, encouraging me to not give up but

I am just overwhelmed by the near futility of it all.

Why can't I get the fucking essays correct. Why is it that she can like get 25/30 for her Case, and 15/20 for her DRQ and 25/30 for MCQ WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME.

I'm still trudging along the D grade for my essays, if I'm lucky. Sometimes hitting a nice C, judging by the decency of my outlines. I'm losing faith in my economic ability. I'm losing faith in the A Levels because of the opportunity cost of me studying econs instead of lit and history

FUCKASKJDASJD:ASJDFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

i'm really scared.

EDIT @ 8:22pm:

IS EVERYONE TAUNTING ME? YOU ALL KNOW MY FUCKING GRADES AND WHY ARE YOU ALL STILL ASKING IF I'M APPLYING FOR THE FUCKING SPH SCHOLARSHIP! RUB IT IN MY FACE WILL YA?