will we pay for who we've been?

YES! I am free from band for 4 band practices. No need to worry about wtf scores and dreading band and wanting it to end quickly... We are relatively free for a week or so.

Which brings us closer to CTs. So if I want to have any hope of doing my Lit S Paper, I've got to kick my ass into shape and study hard enough to average around Cs for my remaining two subjects. No mean feat, but if I could have gotten a B for my Physics during O Levels, I do believe I can do anything!

I'm nearly done with the UN SBQ which needs to be handed up tomorrw, and just finished with my horrendous SEA Economic/Political essay which is really rubbish. :\ I'm probably going to get Manyan and Michelle to go over it tomorrow because y'know they're clever and stuff. :x I was supposed to have finished my Middle East essay and my touched-up CW essay but I'm quite behind time. I still have the LDJ CA assignment due on Friday. But not bad lah, 2 out of 3 essays finished. I just hope I pass the latest SEA essay because rahhh don't want to be demoralized anymore. Now I'm puzzled the remedial scheme of work says that there's a DISCUSSION tomorrow. Well technically we're suppposed to do an essay outline? I don't know. Kevin's class doesn't need to do it so...

High on caffeine right now, sorry for incoherncy.

Band was... I wish I wasn't at band today.

YARGH. Keynes' Theory of Income Determination DRQ test (oh I love acronyms) tomorrow and I'm like still @__@ about it. One reason why I'm leaving my Nationalism outline til tomorrow (if I have to do it at all), is because of the fucking econs test.

I hate school with a passion. Or rather, I just hate this school.

I like studying and learning new things, just not like this. :\ How else? I don't know though.

Oh yes. Yesterday was Valentine's Day, how could I forget! Most of my classmates had hot dates (phoaarr!) and er, I had a heaving good time with Mr United Nations. Mmm, he's good in bed. ;D I so far have received lots of candddyy <3 and I'm feeling guilty because I didn't give anything out. Hurhur, I think I got tired of making gifts from back in St Nicks. TOO BAD GUYS. NO HANDMADE FELT STUFFS FOR YOU.

weaksauce! has been a very good friend to be for the past day. I love the fact that the battery doesn't die off after like 10 songs? XD

William Shatner's Ideal Woman is hot sex.

I told Marianne today that I can't be bothered anymore. I can't feel anything within me to get bothered about it anymore. I'm so sick and tired of being in this... suspension, this state of wanting to be something yet nothing is happening. Whoever said that taking the initiative was good? I'm taking the backseat now. Let me put my head face down into a pool of Arial font size 10 words and drink in the pungent inky smell. You have morphine, whisky and God knows what else, I have ink-sniffing.

drowned out all the pain.

(no subject)

HEI GAIS?

http://kevan.org/johari?name=weaksauce

Mmm yeah.

If you're feeling sinister

Q1. How does the play convey a deep sense of 'isolation within isolation, but at the same time isolation within a togetherness.'?

Q2. 'That the Tyrones try to understand the past, that they listen to one another, that they endure together, is a measure of their heroism.' Do you agree?

HURHUR. 1200 words for either question by tomorrow! I'll urhm, probably hand it up late, being the irresponsible Literature representative of the class.

I personally think that they're very good questions. I don't mean that in an academic sense (which they are obviously well-thought out questions), but rather in a way that really gets you to think and appreciate the play. Now, I haven't had much exposure to plays much less modernist plays -

ARGH I KEEP SPELLING MODERN AS MORDERN. I AM DYSLEXIC.

so my expertise is quite skewed since the only other modernist playwright I've 'studied' other than O'Neil and Williams is Ibsen. While I am in love with A Doll's House and Peer Gynt (quite certainly because you've seen me mentioned them above his other works), it is Long Day's Journey into Life that really renders your heart and delve into the inner depths of man. That sounds very superficial doesn't it? Like I'm some n00b trying to pass off as a Literature Great as Michelle would put it.

That's one of my faults. Being unarticulate despite having all these ideas and feelings in me. Sometimes I can't translate transpose transfer them onto paper, blaming it on the fact that "its more than words". Plain excuses. But don't we all feel that way some point in our lives?

I wish I got some easier question like the one on how O'Neil uses symbols in the play. WTFTHATISSHITEASYGUYS! Now I have to define the quotations, structure a coherent argument with references to the techniques of the play (stage directions galore, the speech/diction, setting, themes, literary techniques) with constant cross-reference to the play.

Something about stage directions. While Williams and his tableaux (see I can't spell for nuts) style of movements concentrate on the amount and the impact of movement in my honest opinion, I feel that O'Neil relies on the extremely subtle actions to bring across the most important of themes. Sounds like something very explicit? You don't know how many people don't see that. Implicit, subtlety, underlying intentions whatever whenever.

I still have to choose an essay to write. OR SHALL I BE A PSEUDO HARDWORKER AND HAND UP BOTH ON MONDAY?

yeah right, you still have one CW essay due, a test to study for, paragraphing and fact sheets to do... but there's no band!!

I think I should inventory my massive manga/books/novels/literary collection sometime soon, with all the Sweet Valley (hahahah) and Babysitters' Club novellas too. HEY! AT SIX ANTYHING MORE THAN 40 PAGES IS A NOVELLA TO YOU!

Hur hur, I was pimpin' some of my music in class today (over the lovely speaker-system, rightfully abused) like the Numa Numa song, the SARS rap and hurhur Shatner's Ideal Woman because 'tis hot. Rachel likes Radiohead and Belle & Sebastian!!!! <3 I love my class more and more everyday now? Of course some people are left much to be desired.

I can never get that phrase correct.

Okay lah, I'll go get started on my essay!!

EDIT as of one hour later (the same):

I've more or less decided to do the first question. Not because it's 'easier' or anything (I hate to submit myself to 'easier' questions for Lit), but rather because there's so much more to talk about. Of course I'm not saying that the second question doesn't have anything to talk about. On contrary, there is! Just that I feel lazy enough to not contend with the question's definition of heroism.

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