for my master rebel prince

i'mdeathlyafraid
of losing something
i never had
you
are the one that
makes me smile
a wretched bundle of n e r v e s

i can't tell you
i'm imagining things
waiting for that
first
step ; move
you'd n e v e r make

i hear
wistful sighs, bated breath
i see
you & me

on opposite sides of the galaxy.

i'm passing you by
on a comet
broomstar
bad-luck to have met
you
are the one for me?

Pseudo-poems. Pretend-poet. That's me.

trot along the cobblestone path

Oh orgasm. A brilliant idea of course, but colour screens? You buy an iPod for music, not to stare at it's mmmm-oh-so-good screen. Now I just have to decide whether I buy the iPod now, since Singapore doesn't have the colour one yet, or wait for the new one. Which actually serves me no purpose, except that it'll look cool. :\

I do need a new mp3 player. The shared iPodmini's dying. Barely enough space left and I need to replace the battery for my brother. No. Don't tell me to get a Creative Zen. I'm sorry but I don't support Creative outside their amazing graphics cards and sound systems. That's all.

Backlash from economics: Apple and Creative should just work together. Apple's design. Creative's sound. You can't deny that the iPod family's quality of sound leaves much to be desired. I mean, if you've made a deal with Intel, why not Creative? Then I wouldn't get snarked at for not supporting home-grown brands.

Anyway, why am I even talking about all these material posessions. It's not like I can afford it at the moment. Maybe by the end of next month, hopefully. I'm taking part in a few writing competitions where I hope that in some freak stroke of luck, I'll win the first prize and thus have the funds to refurbish my room with Mac computers and buy a graphics card for the wonky PC at home so my brother and I still can play games. Well, that can only happen if I win first prize two times.

I just want to win something, damnit. Consolation's good, 3rd's even better, but the prize money for first place is ohdearlordiwanttodienowandgotoheaven. That kind. Not to mention that it'll contribute to my portfolio and up my prestige in the gahment's eyes. <3

I'm looking for a newboy cap. *hint hint* The only hat I have that's suitable for my long skirt is those kind you see Japanese tourists wear. (Thus dubbed, the "Japanese-Tourists Hats" by my mum. :\) And uhhh, I don't think it's really good to wear that to a concert. Worst still my Charizard cap. I'm still contemplating over whether to wear the skirt to Jubilate or wear jeans. Hmmm. It's not that important anyway. I'll still be going clothed.

A second ago (alright, two seconds), I realized how hard it is to be human. If you're a girl and you're seen hanging around guys a lot, you're usually classified as a:

a) slut
b) flirt
c) you get the idea

which, by the way, is very detrimental to people like me, who don't understand the human psyche of general females of the world. I mean, hello? I'm certainly not bimbo/slut/flirt material. I'm just a good ol' fashioned tomboy. Well bimbo maybe, because I am an air head at times.

Yet, if I were a guy and was seen hanging around girls too much, I'd be called a:

a) gayeffeminate man
b)playboy
c) flirt

same old same old, as you can see. We can't live without stereotyping, sadly. It does make generalizing easier and it's amusing to a certain extent.

On another note, I'm might take part in NaNiWriMo (if I remember that correctly) during the month of November. So I shall start planning the gist of my (minimum)165 page novel and see how it goes. I need to decide if it's going to be character-driven or whatnot. What genre? How exciting! Mmkay. That sounded really forced.

In any case, I'm off to read John L. Gaddis' We Now Know, which for some reason I like to call 'Now We Know'.

I'm always available on MSN for a chat, and since I've semi-retired from brain-stimulating pursuits for the week, I'm welcome to senseless natter on the intarweb. I'm sorry to AIM-ers. I'm too lazy to log on. ;x

hey, you wanna be in

( my band )

XDXD This is hilarious.

( if were... )

In any case, I'd like to make a request. I've been getting (much appreciated) anon. comments lately. I'm mollified by the fact that I have people reading this dreadful form of ego-inflating writing I have created for my benefit only, but since I have the honour of wasting your valuable time, could I ask a teensy favour?

To all anon. commenters, I know you'd like to stay unknown to me, because well, that's what that option's for. But I get slightly creeped out by not knowing if it's just one faithful reader, or a whole load of people just passing by. So could you (guys/gals) give some form of identification like uhh, "anon commenter 1" or "some cj person" or "you know me but i'm too lazy to tell you who i am". SOMETHING LIKE THAT.

kthx now. Maybe I'll have some horrible off-kilter pictures for my not-so many readers tomorrow.

getting artsy

get OFFkilterr! today.

my new art-site, which makes use of blogger's picture-posting ability. X3 well anyway, it's the 'fun'-site compared to my deviantART site. more explodingdog-esque drawings.

there's nothing on at the moment, but please be patient!