Ummmm

I think I'm dying.

Mentally, I mean.

I sleep rather early (12am), I wake up late (11pm). I can't concentrate on my work, I barely get through 10 pages of anything before rolling over and vomitting it all out. I do feel like retching nowadays, and if I were some promiscuous bastard, I'd say I'm pregnant. Or down with some STD. But I'm not, so yay to me.

I need to finish up my work load for the week, so I can safely get started on next week's one.

Going to have a jolly family getogether tonight, with the ol' biddies and young'uns from my mum's side of the family (omg, three 's in one sentence!!) and I am and am not looking forward to it.

For one thing, there will be FOOD. And lest I sound like a greedy, materialistic pig, there will be my maternal Grandma around too. She's a dear old thing. So full of life and vitality. I should be ashamed by my lethargic ways.

Well then. Yesterday was certainly eventful. I went down to the Teenage office to collect my certificate and prize money (hoo!!). Then I took the MRT down to Takashimaya with the aim of buying Royce chocolates for my Dad. OF COURSE I got side-tracked. At Kinokuniya, obviously. Where I spent $75 on books. GOSH. It was such a rush, running around the place picking out books with almost no concern. I missed those times.

So I picked up The Time Traveller's Wife (Audrey Niffenegger), Howl's Moving Castle (Dianne Wynne Jones) and a couple of much wanted manga volumes. <3<3<3 I had to restrain myself from buying even more because well yeah. The money was supposed to go into my "BUY ALICIA AN IPOD" fund.

Mmhmm. Then I bought Dad's Nama White Chocolate. Y'know what? Next Valentine's Day. I'm going to buy Nama Chocolate for people. =D I don't know who yet, but I'd love to give them out. I MEAN FEEL IT MELT IN YOUR MOUTH AND TELL ME YOU LIKE IT!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. The Student Conductor session went rather. badly. for me. At times like this, I wonder if I'm even cut out for just GOING there. I doubt whether I have the musicality. I doubt whether. Sigh. I need to keep optimistic. The fact that I signed up, means something. I just need to find out what it means. Then again, I'm an ass to go first. Next session I'm going to very safely plunk myself between the numerous guys there (THERE'S ONLY 2 GIRLS WTF). So yeah, obviously I was the first to commit all the funny mistakes. Which I'm trying to correct. Someone TUTOR ME, MAN! I need to go look for Irish Tune from County Derry, if any of you CJCSB people have it, please send it to me or something. ^__^ Then I need to go do some research for the next session.

My lack of self-confidence is really detrimental at these times.

SHIT DAMNIT

(this is extremely random.)

What the hell have I been doing with my life?

I want to become a journalist.

I'm in JC.

Not in Ngee Ann doing MCM.

I'm in band.

Not in Editorial.

I'm doing History. Literature. Economics.

Ugh. Yay. Hrmm.

I just pray that I haven't made the wrong choice. That I won't ever regret coming here, meeting all the wonderful people (read: band), just enjoying myself to the core. Minus the downs that comes with the ups. I haven't regretted anything yet. Not even not going to Editorial. But still--

Then again, I'll never know, would I? I'd never know what I missed out on. I'd never know what or who I never got to experience.

It's all about Opportunity Cost.


(YAR. I'M DOING ECONOMICS NOW. BUT NOT THAT CHAPTER. ;D)

Oh and a post-script. I forgot when you're leaving but gweenmeanie! Have a safe trip! Yi lu shun feng!

Netsuke

My aunt (the cool one XD) returned from her school's trip to Japan! Let me proceed to foam at the mouth now. I have no need for complains though, I've been there what, 3 times? I'll probably be going there next year, after my A Levels, with Cheryl. Because we want to go to DisneySea. XD Who wants to sign up and go with us? CJC, SN people are all welcome! Hoho.

Yeah, and she brought back souveneirs! I got a Mickey-Mouse netsuke. It's so pop-artish.

( Netsuke!! )

( Meme )

I'd love to go to Japan with that someone. Though, I don't know who that person is at the moment. And, I'd just want to go anywhere with him.