in the past
Sep. 4th, 2005 05:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spiderpigI used to pride myself in being a stubborn brat. Something like Sir threatening to pull us out of the Thailand trip if we went to any of the NYAA events wouldn't cause me to move an inch. To say that I don't want to go for either would be a downright lie. I want to go for both. I can't choose in between. The Thailand trip because it's this residue effect of not being able to go for the Australia Band Trip with SNSB FUCKYOUSNGS!!!! two years ago. I desperately want to see instrument cases rolling out onto the conveyor belts. The MAWAII expedition? Hell, it's an expedition, which means DIRT and MORE DIRT and WATER. How can I not go?
But look at me now, I'm actually complying.
I'm actually taking this lying down, I'm actually listening and obeying to the rather stupid command. Where has my guts gone?
It's too late to try and become like the old me, both figuratively and literally. The deadline for the MAWAII expedition is over already. Looks like the Duke of Edinburgh award won't go to me.
Whose fault is it? Certainly mine.
But look at me now, I'm actually complying.
I'm actually taking this lying down, I'm actually listening and obeying to the rather stupid command. Where has my guts gone?
It's too late to try and become like the old me, both figuratively and literally. The deadline for the MAWAII expedition is over already. Looks like the Duke of Edinburgh award won't go to me.
Whose fault is it? Certainly mine.
