"The Song That is Everywhere", Ninomiya Kazunari
trans. Kaiten Soshi
I can’t see the difference between right and wrong*
You said, “Everything’s alright!”
Those words are making me disappear
and that’s what I’m the most afraid of.
Shout it with all your might,**
“I’m here!” as proof.
We’re not that weak. But we’re not that strong either.
So it’s alright if we cry.
There’s nothing to be embarrassed about.
It’s something that only people with a future can do.
It’s a sign to move on.
I cry, wish, fall down, cry again.
You grew up, afraid of getting hurt.
You’ve always been holding back your tears and
Stopped being able to smile.
When I realized it, I was alone and afraid.
It was that time that your voice that reached out to me,
so gentle that it hurt, and I cried.***
“You’re such a crybaby,” you told me.
It found easy for me to say, “You too,” and we/I laughed.
Don’t say that it’s “nostalgic”, the way we joke around.
I want to grab the present that is here and now.
Look! Breathe in and out, we’re alive.
Taking it step by step, that’s all we need to do.
It’ll be okay. We’ll be here, always.
Just let it all out**** and stand proud.
Because that’s us.
Always and forever.
General note: As with most of Nino’s songs, I’m not sure if he’s speaking or if he’s speaking on behalf of someone…
*It literally says “What’s right? What’s wrong?”
** Literally means “Shout it with all my life/energy”
*** I need to rephrase this better.
****Some lyrics point that it’s ’さらけだして” which is basically “lay it all bare”. I heard it as “叫だして”, “shout it all out”.
生きている 一歩 一歩
大丈夫 僕らは ずっとここにいるよ
だから すべて 叫出してみて
ずっと ずっと ずっと
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20th Century Japanese History
2) Peter Duus, Modern Japan. Boston: Houghton Mifflin, 1997, 134-149.
4) Takafusa Nakamura, "Depression, recovery, and war, 1920–1945" in The Economic Emergence of Modern Japan, ed. Kozo Yamamura. Cambridge; New York: Cambridge University Press, 1997, pp.116-158.
5) Carol Gluck, "Japan's Modernities, 1850s - 1990s," in Asia in Western and World History, eds. Embree, Ainslie T. and Carol Gluck (Armonk, N.Y. : M.E. Sharpe, 1997), pp.561-593.
6) Miriam Silverberg, Erotic Grotesque Nonsense: The Mass Culture of Japanese Modern Times. (Berkeley: University of California Press, 2007), pp.13-47.
7) Sydney Crawcour, "Industrialization and technological change, 1885–1920" in The Cambridge History of Japan, ed. Duus, Peter. Vol. 6. Cambridge; New York: Cambridge University Press, 1988, pp.385-450.
8) Takafusa Nakamura, "Depression, recovery, and war, 1920–1945" in The Economic Emergence of Modern Japan, ed. Kozo Yamamura. Cambridge; New York: Cambridge University Press, 1997, pp.116-158.
Alternative Lives in Contemp. Japan
2) Upham, Frank K. 2004. “Instrumental Violence and the Struggle for Buraku Liberation.” In M. Weiner (ed), Race, Ethnicity and Migration in Modern Japan (v. 2). NY: Routledge. (pp. 146-190) [E-RESERVES]
1) Revise concepts
(Suggested viewing) “Swing: The Velocity of Celebration” (CDV 293-6R), “Dedicated to Chaos” (CDV 293-7R)
2) Continue reading Underworld
3) Revise previous week's readings
5) Virilio “The Immaterials of War” from A Landscape of Events;
6) Edwards: Chap. 1 from The Closed World; Broderick “Nuclear Movies”;
7) Powers chapter from Prisoner’s Dilemma;
8) Paul Virilio “The Art of the Motor” from The Art of the Motor; Sterling: “ARPANET to Internet”
9)(additional readings) Edwards: excerpts from “Why Build Computers?”; Boyer: “Dr. Strangelove: Kubrick Presents the Apocalypse”;
10) William Carlos Williams selections; Beckett Endgame (if you wish to watch one of the productions we own in media resources, choose CVC 12767 or the performance on CDV 852-855); Beck Chap. 1 of Dirty Wars “The Purloined Landscape”
2) Sedgwick, Eve Kosofsky. "How to Bring Up Your Kids Gay: The War on Effeminate Boys." In Tendencies. Durham: Duke University Press, 1993. 154-164.
3) Revise concepts covered in previous lectures
|Sedgwick, Eve Kosofsky. "Axiom 1" and "Axiom 2." In Epistemology of the Closet. Berkeley: University of California Press, 1990. 22-35.|
2) Read on Gertrude Stein and literary "abstract expressionism"
3) Read up on Wallace Stevens
4) Read Ernest Hemingway
2) Art Stage SG
5) Birds & Co.
Oh my god!
I got in!
To the Top 23!
I've got to do a video now to convince YOU and THEM why I should be The World's Coolest Intern!
If you don't really know what I'm talking about, check out my blog post or follow me on twitter at kaitensoshi!
However, this blog is still rather personal so most of my posts will go onto my weblog In Your Basment.
I haven't given up yet, because Yen gave me a timely prod, so here is day 2 of the meme.
day 2 – where you’d like to be in 10 years.
If my math doesn't fail me, I'd be 31 going on 32 in 10 years time. It's a doubly scary thing for me, because another ten years would have passed me by and I'd be thirty. I can get away with being below 18 sometimes, when gregarious insurance agents approach me in the subway stations and ask me if I am old enough to talk to them and I can scoot away and say "no I'm still in JC." When I'm 30, I'm quite confident that I won't look like this anymore. Hopefully I'll be thinner, none of that paunch that comes from drinking and midnight snacking and in a better place.
I haven't decided. Do I want to be in Tokyo or New York? I know one large part of my postgrad plans are going to be centered around either place, but I still haven't decided. Or both. It'd be great if I could be like Naho and Yuri and shuttle between both places. Going through Yuri's mobile updates about her month in New York (on business, no less) and visiting her alma mater makes me feel that I should travel and experience the Big Apple, from the inside out. I'd like to be in a city -- with quick access to the country-side. Loud sounds and quiet people.
I miss Tokyo more than anything else. How the streets outside my dorm always had someone walking past, with their dog, by themselves on the way to the public bath-house, or bringing their laundry to the laundromat. I like watching the huge industrial washing machines and dryers whir into the night.
I'd like to be somewhere I can practice my art in. I'm caught right now, in between writing and photography, and while I want to pursue both wholeheartedly, I'm going to have to make a choice sooner or later. In ten years, hopefully I've found the answer -- and it might be the right one.
I'm probably going to modify some of the questions because clearly this isn't a tumblr and I don't have time to tumblr around with tumblr questions.
( meme questions )
Here is the first question.
day 1 – your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
( answers here. )
17:34 My dad decided to add my friends on Facebook. :\ NO DAD, NO. #
18:20 Chicken rice is cooking in the rice cooker. My hands smell wonderful! #LoudTwitter
11:54 6 articles for S***.*** (3 due when I'm back in SG), 1 article for T*****g, 1 urushi + maki-e presentation (I need to recall what 服部先生 said) #
11:55 Also need to start on 1) Post-Meiji Haiku essay; 2) Lit & Art essay; 3) Paleontology final report. #
12:19 E-mail sent out. Hopefully they'll reply soon. #
13:05 ひとりで廃線・廃墟…やっぱり私ダメです。I'm paranoid about breaking my neck and having no one around to do my last rites. D: #
13:07 Didn't help that there were warnings like "BEWARE OF THIEVES IN TUNNELS". A bit of a waste though! I would have liked to see that bridge! #
02:11 親友告白ED難しい… #Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter
23:13 今日のんびりしちゃった！D: #
23:14 There's something wrong with twitter... #
23:39 Someone please convince my mother that it is impossible to bring everything back under 40kg. #LoudTwitter
02:20 Class then MOMAT for the Stain exhibition! finish the writeup and then pack more. #Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter
20:57 The cumulative lack of sleep has caught up with me. #
01:27 So out of touch with Blythe releases. I think I'm going to get one before I leave Japan. Drag my mum and convince her that I should. #LoudTwitter
Yayoi Kusama's Pumpkin, at the Benesse House beach.
Back in February, or was it March, I made a 10 day trip around Japan's middle kingdom. One of the stops, was Naoshima of Kagoshima Prefecture, famed for being an art-island.
One of the houses in the Art House project. I've packed away my Naoshima books (I bought so many!) so I can't refer to them to find the specific names. I know there's the internet, but somehow I'd like to flip through the catalogs and read up more information that way.
Another Art House project; this time James Turrell's (who also has an installation in the Chichu Art Museum) Darkside of the Moon. One of my favourite installations. I have a soft spot for art pieces involving shadows and darkness, as cliche as that sounds.
It was a cloudy day when I went, and for short periods of time, the rain decided to have sporadic bursts around the island, and it was a bit of an ordeal trudging about in the winter wind. But there was something very calming about the island, and the weather. It was full of people, but not crowded and never once did I feel that there were too many people in one place. Walking about the island and discovering places not on the map, visiting the Art Houses, tip-toeing through the two main museums, I felt that I could live here and that I'd love to live here. One day I'm going to come back (next year?) and spend a night or two. What's the island like at night? How would the outdoor installations feel in the darkening sky?
Sadly my film photos of the island are all gone! They got mixed up with my Miyajima photos so no lovely shots of the teabowl (I had to climb the pedestal -- shhhh! -- to get the shot I wanted!) or other secret photos!
The full set of photos is here.
21:22 Not feeling this overnight karaoke thing but if I don't go people will be mad. How's that for new age peer pressure! #
06:32 帰ったばかり。９時授業あるぞー #
14:37 I wish I could stay a little longer! id love to learn about japanese antiques from the hattoris #
16:45 Syabi isn't replying my e-mails in English so I sent them one in Japanese. If they don't reply by Wednesday I'm calling them!!!! :< #
17:11 一万年と二千年前から愛してる #
21:53 Sidenote: Angels On Bare Skin is working wonders for me. D: This is not good because I will never get a steady supply of it back home. :\ #
22:01 caught the Full Monty Show this afternoon. Adrian Pang is HOTSTUFF; would totally do him if i had the chance hahaha (RT @electrictapirs) YES #
22:09 “Can there be art”-started "Roppongi Crossing 2010".Tomorrow is the last day of the exhibition! #moriartmuseum (via @mori_art_museum) #
23:15 I am going to volunteer at Shakespeare & Co. once in my life before I die. #
01:11 Number 1 frustration is never being able to get to participate in Arashi's shows. #Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter
12:42 Srsly, Syabi, why are you not replying to my e-mails?! #
12:59 So um, on the spur of the moment, I ordered two vintage polaroid bags. They're hard-cased and <3 #
14:21 Once I'm done with this, I probably can read Japanese Legalese with less effort. If I had more time, I'd read up on (EN) Legalese... #
15:39 Laksa for dinner! #
15:40 I am also, very very broke. Need to take more jobs/write more articles but schoolwork is preventing me from doing so! #
18:51 RT @designersays: With most movies going 3D these days, once again it's just another example of art imitating life. (via @wallpapermag) #
20:57 ！！！コウイチの告白も萌え！！ #
21:10 「俺の女に、なってくれ」って！！！！うわー #
22:01 2 out of 5 pages done. Starting on the 3rd page. I might be able to finish this tonight! #
22:01 Tonight being 3 or 4am. #
22:24 RT @gssq Being colour blind means laughing about George Bush looking like a monkey but getting outraged when Obama's a chimp #
00:10 3 down, 2 more to go. #
02:16 Argh! I'm nearly done but I just HAVE to get the rolling ball of death. #
02:58 TRANSLATION DONE. #
03:07 Didn't manage to study for my vocabulary test. Will cram later. #
03:37 IT'S 4:30 HERE. I WILL NOT ANSWER THAT SKYPE CALL. #Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter
11:48 Mmm, that kimchi onigiri was good. #
13:59 So I think I got the job for the legalese translation (!!!) but they need it by Friday evening which is neigh impossible because #
14:00 I have classes until 6pm tomorrow. I took an average of 3hrs to translate one page (IT IS HARD.) So if there are 3 pages left, I need 9hrs! #
14:06 I asked for an extension to Saturday evening (which means I stay up all Friday because Saturday I have a 工芸fair in the afternoon + 日本語クラス) #
14:08 でも、初めてお金をもらえる翻訳の仕事（←変な文法！）だから、受けたいです。 #
17:38 At the debriefing orientation, sitting by myself. as usual. <-no not being emo #
21:35 I cannot figure out if Japan Post or Yamato is cheaper. I am also paranoid about my books getting damaged. I should go with Yamato... #LoudTwitter
18:59 Need to set a translation fee rate... I have no idea how much to charge. #
20:33 Why am I translating Japanese legalese into English!?! 難しい〜〜〜 #
22:58 MATH + LEGALESE = NOOOOO. Any form of math! I cannot understand! #
23:16 Done with the sample translation! Never took me this much effort before. D: Now to write my ikebana report as well as the JASSO essay. #
00:17 When feeling down and out and severely under the weather, turn to familial medication. #LoudTwitter
15:36 One more period before school is over! #LoudTwitter